N strikes again!

almost birthday

2009-05-07T11:08:00.000+07:00

birthday wishlist

Tumblr.

2009-04-22T16:52:00.001+07:00

i'm giving it a try. sorry blogspot.

startallover.tumblr.com

we're just april fools

2009-04-05T19:11:00.004+07:00

my God, it's already april. i could barely feel march.

well, after 5 days of staying inside the apartment, i could breathe some fresh air last friday and went to St. Kilda and Richmond.

today... i went to chadstone and had dinner at sofia. pretty good day, i suppose.

by the way, the word hatred and fake seems to be around my head all day long, no, all week long.

just thought i'd let them know, our life is a competition, i'm already one step forward, and just to remind you, i will win. i might not have the essentials that you have now, but i'm sure i'm strong enough to keep going on. i will be stronger than you. my life without you wouldn't be a waste. if i could find better version of you, i would kick you away. like you did to me.

unfortunately, i am not that kind of person, i am not you.

i grew, because of you. and because of your mistakes.

"4 am there's someone on your shoulder

they call, when its suddenly cold

you're like an autumn's leaf in winter's wind

blown away by the sudden lack of friends when you need someone close

don't give me lies of gold intentions..."

whatever will be, will be.

2009-03-18T14:04:00.002+07:00

I am so excited! My mom and my grandma are coming this Friday to visit me! oh how i've missed them!

the great thing is that, my grandma got her visa today, and they're going tomorrow! so it's kind of a rush. and what makes it amazing is, 5 hours ago, i texted my mom asking about grandma's visa and she said it's not done yet. and an hour ago, i said out loud "God, give my grandma her visa, i miss her so much!" and my phone beeped, i thought it was sasha, but it was my mother. saying that my grandma's visa is done and they're ready to go.

i cannot be more excited!

aside from that, i already counted everything i need for going to the america to see anberlin and taking back sunday. (if my dad allows it, which i hope he will). and stephanie said the place she works in is now hiring, so i can find my luck there to earn money! yay!

and hopefully will have enough to get my main priority.

yes, taking back sunday and anberlin.

wish

luck

lovelies.

feels like bloggin'

2009-03-15T16:25:00.002+07:00

Um, hi.

It's been awhile since I wrote a decent update here. That's only because I don't really know what to write. Okay, let me try this.

School- it's not really that bad. I'm keeping up with everything fine, but the essays. God. I'm so not in the mood for writing 2000 words essay. Although, I already have everything I need. But the light hasn't shine yet.

Friends- got them. but this is australia babe. Not everyone lives in your town. I sometimes don't mind spending some time alone, I'm coping with loneliness just fine. And plus, like Sasha and I agreed, we need to stand on our own two feet. Never depend on anybody. Right Sha?

Health- Tired and having a little bit of a headache because of the rain. I didn't have any umbrella, so, yesterday, I walked to the bus stop and stood there for about 20 minutes in the rain, and after I got off, the rain was still going, so I walked to Deakin. As soon as I got to Chadstone, I bought an umbrella. And hopefully, will remember to bring it every time I leave the house. I often thought about how I never had to deal with this kind of situation in Jakarta.

Well, it's not like I'm going to have a driver and a car forever. Especially in this life that I've chosen.

Come to think of it, when we grow up, we're not going to have someone taking care of our every need, are we? We (at some point) have to take care of ourselves alone. House rent, food, transportation, laundry, and all of that. No more mom and dad to take care of those for us. So better start from now. I might turned out to be a spoiled brat living like she owns everything just 'coz my parents gave me everything I need if I stayed back home. Have to pay and do everything by myself here, really brought me back to my senses. I am no longer feel the need to envy the world of the riches.

Love- screw this one, shall we?

Food- I only need 4 foods and 4 food only. Tacos, Sushi, Burrito, and Cookies. I rest my case.

Money- I've applied to two places, unfortunately, they haven't respond, so for now, I don't have any job. But I better get one soon, I want to spend money without the guilt. Because right now... I'm using my parents money. And it's bad enough that they have to pay for my house rent and my college tuition. I'm just feeling a bit guilty when I use it for something else (clothes, etc). It will be better if I earn and use my own money. Don't you think?

And that's about it.

I actually cannot wait until mom and grandma visit me! I've missed them so much, and I do need to know the gossips from my mom.

a wish,

2009-03-11T11:32:00.005+07:00

If you asked me a few days earlier, "What do you want for your birthday?" I know, I know it's too early, but if you asked me that, I'm going to say some cheesy things like maybe, happiness, or such.

But now, I know exactly what I want.

I want to go to :

Yes, there it is. My two most favorite band (Taking Back Sunday and Anberlin), in one concert.

A few months, no, like 5 or 6 months ago, I was told to make a magazine for our mass communication class and I had to do 2 ads. I made one ad for a concert, which is Taking Back Sunday and Anberlin's. Oh, it's coming true. It's coming true now. I guess, I can see the future. No, I can't. But anyway, coincidence! Or a lucky guess, either of that.

So there you have it, that's what I want for my birthday. May 19th people! May 19th!

Fingers crossed for a miracle!

and p.s : evvvverybody knows I love Anberlin. Especially if they know me in person. True?

Dear Time Traveler,

2009-03-05T18:11:00.000+07:00

I envy you.

A thing I've said.

2009-03-04T17:25:00.002+07:00

"Since he doesn't have any experience worth writing, except all the party and rock shows and getting drunk, he has to make a stupid story like that. Poor him."

I bet you all know who I was talking about.

My teenage moment.

2009-03-01T17:16:00.003+07:00

So, last friday, I went to Soundwave (finally) and had the best time ever. I met up with Diana there and watch a little part of Madina Lake and we went to see Alesana. I met Elise along the way. Alesana was awesome! I love their performance, it was so energetic! right after Alesana, we went back to stage 2 to see Less Than Jake, then we went to check the time table for signing bands. To my surprise, I got cramps and fell right in front of medical booth. embarrassing, i know. After that, I ran to stage 3 where I thought Bayside would be, only to realized that Bayside was on stage 6. So I have to ran back to stage 6 and saw Bayside. Right after Bayside, I went to Alesana's signing table. I only got them to sign my back and I didn't get any picture, because I was too nervous. Diana and I then went to stage one to see Forever The Sickest Kids! I was so pumped about it! I'm so excited to see them live! FTSK was great, and sooo amazing with the crowds! People jumped and mosh, it was getting hotter and hotter but it was fun! as the result of that amazing crowds, I got bruises. I stayed got front row for Anberlin! So was Elise! They were AMAZING, amazing, amazing, amazing!!!!! I waited for them for a little while, but they didn't came out so I went to line up for FTSK's signing. I was so nervous to meet them, I've been their fans since, february 2008 if I'm not mistaken. The first one was Caleb, I gave him the bracelet and he said "Aw you're so sweet" and then he kissed me (well on the cheek)! but enough to make me super nervous. Then I gave Jonathan a bracelet and he asked me "Do you know who made this?" and I said "No, because, I brought it from jakarta, Indonesia. I'm Indonesian." "Wow!! (high 5) I live in Indonesia too!" and of course, I didn't believe it. After meeting all of FTSK, I went to stage 5 to see Valencia, and got front row ♥ what I didn't know was, Nate from Anberlin was at stage 6! But that's alright because I get to see Valencia front row and I sang along to their every song! It feels so good to see them live because I love their album and I've been listening to it over and over since day 1 I bought it. You can see on my previous post that I posted their lyrics. After that I totally forgot what to do so I went to the merch stand and bought Anberlin & Valencia's shirts. What I forgot was, I had a ticket to see Maylene & Sons of Disasters at that exact time. So there goes my $2. I lined up for Valencia, and then added my embarrassment of the day, I got cramps in front of them. I am now, the singing-along-girl-with-cramps. Thank you cramps, I love you... not. And I have to sit first before I could walk again. When I could walk, I started walking towards the exit AND got cramps AGAIN, (see how much cramps loves me).

But over all Friday was the most amazing day I've ever had! To this date. period.

To this exact second, my whole body is still aching and plus, my feet still hurts so bad. This is the most terrible pain I've ever felt since.... I can't remember when. But tell you what, it was worth it.

I could relive today over and over and over again.

It's gonna take long.

2009-02-27T19:03:00.002+07:00

It's gonna take long for me to update because I have tons of stories for today. And it's already 11 pm, and I don't think my eyes and finger could take it.

Well, I enjoyed Soundwave Festival, got a few things to remember them by, including scars and bruises and cramps, terrible, terrible pain. But that's okay. I freaking love today. Definitely an unforgettable, irreplaceable, one of the best days, I've ever had.

I hope you enjoy your Friday.

You know what,

2009-02-15T18:48:00.004+07:00

It was hard for me to leave home.

But somehow, I knew I'll be back.

And now I have a feeling, it will be harder to leave this town.

Because I knew from the minute I came, I'm going to leave.

Lookie here.

2009-02-13T03:45:00.003+07:00

Guess what?? I'm going to Australia today!! Wish me all the best of luck.

I really can't wait until soundwave, it's going to be super awesome. I'm going to have so much fun!

Wish-list:

1. Polaroid Camera. I guess I'll have to save up and buy them on ebay.

2. fredflare.com to ship internationally.

3. The Orphaned Anything's. Aaaaaaaahhh!!!

that's about it.

Hibernation.

2009-01-30T01:24:00.003+07:00

I think it's time for me to hibernate for awhile. Let this steamy chaos cool down first and then I'll write again. I still write in my private journal in which I could be totally free and doesn't have to worry that my words might offend somebody.

Finishing my exams doesn't mean I'm less busy. I might even be busier! I've got a lot of things to get done before my departure on February 13th, including taking out my wisdom teeth. Good thing all the immigration stuff is finished.

One thing that made me slightly upset is my family. I'm so sad to leave them, especially my grandparents. My mom told me that both of my grandparents are more nervous than I am about this "trip" (I'll call it trip because I will eventually be back.) They're afraid that they won't see me again. No, not me, they're afraid that they'll die before seeing me again. And you know what, I was thinking the exact same thing. I'm afraid that if something happens, I won't be there. And it will definitely hurts to know that I can't be there in such a situation. I seriously love them to death.

Stay tune.

Lack of updates

2009-01-27T23:46:00.001+07:00

So, so, sorry.

I'm so busy with final exams.

I hope I could write soon ;)

quick words:

2009-01-24T18:47:00.002+07:00

those crazy people who demonstrates almost every week
WAKE UP PEOPLE! just destroying things. why don't you do something productive instead? or at least give the solution to the problem.
you're destroying your country for god's sake. its your country thats dealing with all the loses.
shut up with your reason such as defending your religion, its effing not. you're making a wrong, effing wrong, impression of our religion.

seriously people think about it.

The most interesting thing that happened to me on Monday.

2009-01-21T01:01:00.004+07:00

Last Monday was my last class of Computing. Unlike any other subject, I don't think this needs a revision. So, Winda and I decided not to do the past paper exam and just open the book at some page and pretended to read it. We came across a map of United States. And then... there's one state, MS. I asked Winda "What's MS?" "thenameofacertainsomeone" "Hahahaha, no seriously." she couldn't answer so we tried to remember but nothing came up. And then we had this idea...

We list all of the states and see which one is missing. So we did. I think the lecture is quite impressed to see us do some work. Although he didn't know that the work we've done has NOTHING to do with his subject.

So came this list:

At the moment, we've listed all states except MS. (We continued this list at break time). We refused to eat until we figured out what MS is. And we won't try and search it in google because that's "giving up". We think hard, and Winda yelled "MISSISIPI!!!"

After the mystery is solved, we ate peacefully. And even forgot to study for the test after the break ;)

And the title is right, this is the most interesting thing that happened to me on Monday. And yes, my life is that boring.

My day yesterday, was consisted by:

2009-01-18T03:17:00.002+07:00

1. Glitter tattoos

2. Potatoes (Soup, mashed, fried, baked)

3. Vanilla latte

4. Movies

5. Clowns

6. Balloons

7. Laughter

8. Babies

9. Seaweed

last, but not least, my family.

a life for me now is very enjoyable.

My feelings exactly:

2009-01-15T21:12:00.001+07:00

Now she's forgiven the harms of her past
She'll take a message somewhere it will last
She fails where she fails but she's trying
And growing up fast

Echoes climbing back
What's this
Hit or miss attack
You missed it
She's got white lights on her face
From the bad days
That she just can't erase
And her sad eyes are replaced
With the new life in a beautiful place

And this is the pattern
And this is the stone
This is the past she knows she can run from
This is the place she's been in since she was born

Deas Vail-White Lights

Go watch : The Fly Boys (Sky Kids)

2009-01-14T05:15:00.003+07:00

Awards:

Ojai Film Festival :

Audience choice- Best Feature Film

Bendfilm Festival :

Audience choice- Best Feature Film

Arpa International Film Festival :

Jury prize- Best Screen Play

Ashville Festival :

Audience choice- Best Feature Film

Barbados International Film Festival :

Audience choice- Best Feature Film

Jury prize- Best Feature Director

-Best Feature Actor

-Best Feature Actress

Jackson Hole Film Festival :

Jury Prize- Best Feature Film

Garden State Film Festival :

Jury prize- Best Feature Film

Jury Prize- Best cinematography

Big Island Film Festival :

Audience choice- Best Feature Film

Jury choice- Best Family Feature

California Independent Film Festival :

Jury prize- Best Director

Jury Prize- Best Cinematography

Jury prize- Best Score

Sedona International Film Festival :

Audience choice - Best feature film

Lake Havasu International Film Festival :

Jury price- Best Feature Film

Jury Prize- Best Film Of 2008

9th Annual Westchester County International Film Festival :

Jury prize- Best Feature Film

Tiburon International Film Festival :

"Golden Reel Award"- Best Children Film

George Lindsay Una Film Festival :

Jury prize- Best Feature Film

Beaufort Film Festival:

Jury prize- Best Feature Film

Durango Independent Film Festival :

Jury prize- Best Feature Film

Gasparilla Film Festival :

Audience prize - Best Feature Film

Omaha Film Festival :

Jury prize- Best Feature Film

Audience prize- Best Feature Film

the award list got so long, I'm too lazy to type it down. Check it out here.

12 days to final

2009-01-13T00:21:00.003+07:00

Whoa, this semester went by fast. Wish me luck on my finals.

So, I'm still tired, maybe mom's advice was right, i need some kind of vitamin pills. pssh, i dont need that! i think i'm tired because i'm nervous. You know, moving and stuff.

Resting!

p.s my mom loves stephen christian's blog. 'what an artist.' she said. :)

Eeek!

2009-01-10T13:52:00.002+07:00

Hey you guys, I'm sorry I've been missing out this couple of days. I'm just always too tired for some reason, but I assure you this is a good kind of tiredness. Campus is getting more and more hectic due to the final exam that's just around the corner, assignment this, mid test that, class room test, and everything. Can you believe that it's only 34 more days until I move to Australia? No, I actually cant. Time is flying by so fast, faster than before!

I watched Yes Man last night, I thought it was a very good movie. I do have something more to say about that film, but, meh, my fingers are still sore from all the lifting today, so maybe some other time.

I have to end this post right here because I have to help my mom and grandma to clean my grandma's house for tomorrow's family gathering. As the host, we have to make the place comfortable for the guests ;)

I'll write to you later when all this tiredness has passed :) I'm still gonna do quickie updates from twitter though, it's faster and not so much chit chat.

Wide awake

2009-01-07T02:52:00.002+07:00

People, people, I've made a second blog! Please kindly check it out :)

Hows your sixth day in 2009? Mine was great!

I made a new record. As you probably know already, I have a wee bit trouble with sleeping. A few months ago I didn't sleep for 25 hours, and I thought that's the longest I could go on without sleeping, but I was wrong!

I didn't sleep for 30 hours yesterday, and it's all because of Economics! Well, not really that's just a reason I used so it seems like I actually have something to do. In the morning I went to Dunkin Donuts and bought myself (and Sasha too) a cup of hazelnut latte. So, my drive to campus was accompanied by a cup of hazelnut latte and Taking Back Sunday's Louder Now with maximum volume. Class went by slower than usual, it seemed to me that the lecture was explaining the whole book instead of one chapter. My friends are glad because after class they could sleep, well not for me. Gym was patiently waiting for me to come back after a week of holiday. So, yeah, I went to the gym. To my surprise, I wasn't even tired at all! And I wasn't hungry either! Of course it surprised me because I haven't had any breakfast or lunch. The only thing that filled my tummy is that delicious hazelnut latte. (Yes, I am "healthy").

I got home at 3, and went to sleep immediately until 10.30 p.m and now I'm wide awake. Hahaha. I don't think I will be sleeping again, I have to be up and running at 5.30 and that means 2 more hours.

Hmm

2009-01-05T00:59:00.003+07:00

"... And that wasnt the end of it. There are always those who take it upon themselves to defend God, as if Ultimate Reality, as if the sustaining frame of existence, were something weak and helpless. These people walk by a widow deformed by leprosy begging for a few paise, walk by children dressed in rags living in the street, and they think, "Business as usual." But if they perceive a slight against God, it is a different story.

Their faces go red, their chest heave mightily, they sputter angry words. The degree if their indignation is astonishing. Their resolve is frightening.

These people fail to realize that it is on the inside that God must be defended, not on the outside. They should direct their anger at themselves. For evil in the open is but evil from within that has been let out. The main battlefield for good is not the open ground of the public arena but the small clearing of each heart.

Meanwhile the lot of widows and homeless children is very hard and it is to their defense, not God's, that the self-righteous should rush."

-Life Of Pi by Yann Martel

Survey Tagged

2009-01-04T23:12:00.002+07:00

"The Very First Survey in 2009"
Try not to skip any question!
And here you go...

What is the most exciting moment in your life?
I honestly can't pick one

How do you show love to people who are special to you?
I don't know... Honestly

When do you get really angry?
When someone does something intolerable

What do you do if others disagree with you?
Depends on what we disagree on. But, mostly try to discuss it.

What do you do for fun?
Read, Write, Watch.

A person from the opposite sex gives special attention to you but you don’t expect it, how would you respond him/her?
I seriously wouldn't notice the special attention

Would your rather be very rich or be very smart? Why?
Very smart. I could try to make money with my smartness.

Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
In a college, taking my master degree, and hopefully have someone special to come home to.

If you could be successful at any job in the world, what would that job be?
Wife, mom, friend, and God's servant

What attracts you most?
Eyes

Would you rather have a spouse who is intelligent but unattractive or unintelligent but attractive?
In between, how about that?

If you’re able to speak in 5 languages, what will they be?
Spanish, Mandarin, Javanese, French, Swedish

What is your favorite quote?
I can't pick one

What would you define yourself in 3 adjective words?
Loud, Moody, Difficult

What’s your favorite Christmas song?
Santa Claus is Coming To Town

What’s the best food you’ve ever eaten and where did you eat it?
I like food, so I couldn't pick the best

Would you rather spend a day without eating or without sleeping?
Without eating.

What kind of person irritates you most?
People who thinks they're the center of the world, thinks they're all that just because people tell them they are.

What would you like to do in the future?
Be happy and successful

When’s the last time your parents got angry with you?
Like really angry? A long time ago.

Who influenced your life the most?
For these last months, Stephen Christian and Anberlin

How tall are you?
5'5

Do you like bananas?
Most definitely

What is your favorite movie quote?
The newest : "Your fun is only limited by your imagination."

What would be the soundtrack to the movie about your life?
I think it would be "Take A Step Back" Every Avenue, or "All At Once" Valencia, or "Breathe" Anberlin.

If you had to make a movie about your life what would it be called?
I don't know about the title, but I know the sub-title, "When imagination got a little bit out of control"

Biggest regret?
Take people for granted

What musical instrument do you play?
A wee bit Guitar

Family or friends?
Family, they're my true friends

Do you drink coffee?
I'm addicted to coffee

What are your "comfy clothes"?
Those shirts in my closet

How many people are in your family?
Family for me includes everyone, grandparents, cousins, etc. So, a lot.

Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt?
Johnny Depp

Desktop or Laptop?
Laptop for fun

Desktop for work

Are you in love?
This love is getting weakened

Favorite hot drink?
Cappucino/Latte/Frappucino

Performing Arts, Fine Arts, or Sports?
Fine arts PWNS!!!!!!

What came first, the chicken or the egg?
I could never understand this question, hahaha

How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
1905?

Why are you taking this interview?
Because Winda tagged me

How many hobbies do you have?
Eek, should I count?

Close your eyes for a moment, who pops into your head?
Someone I'm trying to forget

Describe your perfect Sunday morning?
I always sleep in on Sunday morning, and it's perfect

If you could be someone else for a day, who would it be?
No one

When do you want to get married?
When I'm emotionally ready

What makes you cry?
Feelings

What makes you laugh?
People, jokes, and sometimes, the laughter itself

Do you believe that the cup is half empty or half full?
Huh? I'm not going to pretend I'm smart and understand this question...

Who was your hero as a child?
Okay, judge me... Sailor Moon

Are you an outdoor or an indoor person?
Indoor

What 3 words would your best friend use to describe you?
Why don't you ask them?

Who do you admire most?
Excluding my family because I'll always admire them in some ways. Anberlin. They're just so, wow.

How do you feel?
Unwell, but happy

What size shoes do you wear?
7

Favorite Place to Eat?
Sushi Tei & Bread 'n Breakfast

Opera, Musical, Concert, Play, Performance, or Other?
Concert

Your favorite Disney Films?
I like all original Disney Films. But above all, Lion King.

Why did the chicken cross the road?
Because (insert answer here)

Do you support Paris?
Paris? Like Paris Hilton?

Where is Waldo?
Shh, I can't tell! He's hiding.

Favorite element?
Air

What was your last thought?
Water, Earth, Air, Fire

Favorite fruit?
Banana own my heart

Which is worse? A bad laugh or a bad cough?
Bad cough, a bad laugh made me laugh!

Would you rather be blind or deaf?
Neither...

Kill the spider or let it out?
Let it out

Do you shower every single day?
I will be honest and say... No :)

What would you do if Michael Jackson asked you out?
Freaked out and maybe be dead for like 60 seconds

Do you read Harry Potter books?
Yes

What is your favorite place?
Home

If you could have one super human power what would you choose?
Fly. I wouldn't choose reading minds because I've learnt that some things are better off unknown

Have you had a beer in the last week?
Nope

Favorite body part?
Eyes and hands for sure

What do you do on fridays?
Not school ;)

What is your favorite song of all time?
Of all time? A Whole New World. Well, what can I say? I love that song since I was a kid

Are you fed up of all these questions?
Kind of, this is loooong.

Thank you for taking this survey.
Send this survey to your friends.
Happy New Year!

Living in 2009

2009-01-03T22:32:00.003+07:00

Hello you!

How's your third day in 2009? Mine's really well :)

I got to see Bedtime Stories yesterday. Despite the fact that the theater was really, really cold, and I got the front row seat (which was totally fine if it was a concert), I loved it! That's what I call creativity. Talking of creativity, Winda and I went to a cd store today. Winda saw a cd by our local band and she said "This is what I call 'a lack of creativity." The background color is red. The band's name is written in blue using, I suppose, Lucida Grande (Open your ms. word) and the title used italic Century Gothic. The picture? There's no picture, except a silhouette. Yes, yes, very imaginative.

The main reason Winda and I met at Pondok Indah Mall was to work on our economics assignment. And here's the result of our 'work':

Yes, we made 0 progress.

Now, for the past week, I've been listening to Anberlin, Blueprints For The Black Market. I now really believe that there's not even 1 song, ONE song, I didn't like. Zero, Nol, Nihil.

I'm so excited to tell you that I'll be attending Australian Soundwave '09! Anberlin, Valencia, Forever The Sickest Kids, Bayside, and Say Anything? Big yes! All I have to do is wait for Taking Back Sunday and Every Avenue. Which I hope will be very soon ;)

Oh, and Winz, you ARE right, God really did show me that he's not worth crushing. He is so not worth the time! He's a mess! Besides his good looks and you know what. But I'll keep writing for literature's sake.

I'm now in a position where I'm content with my own life.

The world is not against me. It's helping me.

Hello!

2009-01-01T00:45:00.004+07:00

If you read this (and live around Asia/Australia, its 12:46 am), that means that you have made it to another year. 2009.

Many, many, many things had happened in the last 365 pages of our book of life. The happy, the sad, the expected, and the unexpected. I trust it was for the best, maybe the bad times taught you something, maybe the good times made you appreciate life, maybe the expected made you thankful, and maybe the unexpected made you a lot closer to God. But, overall, it brought you to 2009.

For me, the half year of 2008 is the highlight of the year. Graduating, and everything. I couldnt be anymore happier to graduate junior high, and went straight to college foundation. It was one of the proudest moments of my life.
the rest of 2008 made me realize how important my family is. For some reason, when I started college, I became a lot closer with my mom and dad. Especially my mom. We did almost everything together, and I didnt mind at all. I went with my family on the weekend instead of my friends and I realized that they're the true ones I can count on. The problems my family faced this year seemed to brought us even closer than we've ever been. The trip to Yogyakarta (my grandfather's hometown) couldnt be any better. We're so proud of my family. and I can tell that they're too proud.
It's very clear now that I really, really, really am going to miss them when I moved to Australia. The jokes, the chaos, and everything.

Well, I'm just going to keep on praying that I will be ready to face whatever God has placed in the future.

God bless us, and HAPPY NEW YEAR.

from my family...

to yours...

edit: I found an old chat from an old friend, and he has a part of my year with him

* says : the age difference never mattered once i grew to love you
* says : i knew i could talk to you about anything
* says : sometimes you realise that love is not to be taken for granted
* says : mmwwaah

If you read this, thank you very much, you have no idea how happy it was for me to know someone like you. If only you know I'm going to be so much closer to you now...

music

2008-12-31T01:05:00.002+07:00

2008 has come to an end and this is my top 10 album of 2008 (and my favorite song off of it.)

1.New Surrender-Anberlin
(Younglife)

2.We All Need A Reason To Believe-Valencia
(All At Once)

3.The Morning Light-The Morning Light
(Clouds)

4.Shh, Just Go With It-Every Avenue
(Take A Step Back)

5.Shudder-Bayside
(A Call To Arms)

6.Underdog Alma Mater-Forever the Sickest Kids
(The Way She Moves)

7.Skip School, Start Fights-Hit the Lights
(Drop The Girl)

8.The Fame-Lady GaGa
(Just Dance)

9.You Are My Sunshine-Copeland
(The Day I Lost My Voice(The Suitcase Song))

10.Sweet Attention-Rookie Of The Year
(Sweet Attention)

This trip made me realize

2008-12-30T00:02:00.001+07:00

How important my family is to me.

And they are my number 1.

Well said

2008-12-26T23:25:00.000+07:00

Oh my God... This town, it feels like a headache and all the words inside my mouth won't come through.
I've got this pain in my head that I can't shake. When I remind myself I can't get to you.

And it rained all day and I figured it out... I'm not the person that I used to be.
Washed away, please someone make me okay. Because I'm feeling like I might...
Take today and make my way through the town, the streets, the pouring rain
'Cause some days, it seems like the clouds won't stay away.

I watched you change with the seasons
I wrote you letters but I forgot to mention that I'm a wreck, I'm a mess, you're a stranger.
Watch your face fade away
Now I'm stuck here.

I wish you a merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T21:23:00.004+07:00

MERRY CHRISTMAS!!!

hope you(will) have/had a wonderful day to day!

I had a wonderful day today!

I got everything on my wish list (excluding him), but that's really okay!

Since I have to keep myself up all night (7 hours) so I'll do a 2008 survey ...

Was 2008 a good year for you?
January through August, yes.

What was your favorite moment of the year?
Graduation and my birthday.

What was your least favorite moment of the year?
hm hm hm.

Who were you with when 2008 began?
Cheras, Sisters, Uncle, Mom, and Dad

Did you keep your new years resolution of 2008?
I guess so

Do you have a new years resolution for 2009?
kinda

Did you fall in love in 2008?
yeah, but it started in 2007

If yes, with who?

If yes, do they know?
i guess so... i dont know?

Did you make any new friends in 2008?
a lot! :)

Who are your favorite new friends?
every friend is my favorite

What was your favorite month of 2008?
Every month had its down times.

Did you travel outside of your country in 2008?

Yup

Where?
Arab and Japan i guess.

How many different states did you travel to in 2008?
0

Did you lose anybody close to you in 2008?
yeah, but not like death.

What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2008?
north by northwest, blade runner, aliens.
mick picked some good movies!

What was your favorite song from 2008?
anberlin, valencia, bayside, and the morning light's new album.

Did you have a favorite concert in 2008?
surely NOT panic! at the disco.

did you do a lot of drugs in 2008?
no.

Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year?
not really

What was the worst lie someone told you in 2008?
nothing i can remember

Did you treat somebody badly in 2008?
i surely hope not.
or i probably didnt mean it

Did somebody treat you badly in 2008?
yes, but maybe they didnt mean it :)

How much money did you spend in 2008?
my own money?
not a lot :)

What was your proudest moment of 2008?
graduation! and getting into MIBT

What was your most embarrassing moment of 2008?
nothing came up to my mind...

If you could go back in time to any moment of 2008 and change something, what would it be?
nope, not a thing!

What are your plans for 2009?
move to Aussie and have a fresh start.

i think....

2008-12-24T00:16:00.003+07:00

this year's holiday is going to be like

Johnson's Family Vacation meets This Christmas

Mother's day!

2008-12-22T23:50:00.002+07:00

big big big BIG love to my mother!

We went to Sayap Ibu today and we played with the children! There's this little boy, couldnt be older than 4 years old, that instantly hugged me when i came into the room. He's just so cute! he followed me around every where and didnt want to let go! When I was about to go home, he climbed out of his bed and wanted to come! And when I said goodbye he kept shaking his head...

Gonna go there tomorrow, again! I'm officially a volunteer there now :)

Maybe you could help too?

2008-12-21T23:35:00.002+07:00

FACELESS

and since tomorrow's mothers day... I'm planing to go to Sayap Ibu (as I mentioned to you before, an organization for neglected children(&/orphans) to share the happiness.

wanna come?

12:13

2008-12-18T23:42:00.003+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"When we all move on
We'll go back to the start
To when there was no law
And we could love
Without a fear of change
With the courage of kings"

Whoever likes twilight the movie, probably has a bad taste in movies or doesnt understand those things. And hell don't you try to be smart and say otherwise.

It's only a week away until Christmas! And the urge to do good deeds are greater than ever for me. I'm going to a place called Sayap Ibu, its an organization for neglected children. My mom once went there when she was in high school and wanted to adopt one of the children, but my grandma wouldnt let her. My motherly instinct (as Mick like to say) is on right now... I guess... hahaha. And for tomorrow (unfortunately, when I wrote this, it's already 12:05 am, so I'm going to say today) And for today, I'm going to the zoo with my cousins. I forgot to tell you in the previous post that even though I live 3 minutes away from the zoo, I've never been there. And now I'm excited! Observe mode: definitely on.

As for the weekend... Winda and I are going to subtitle to watch some movies or search for some good movies to do an essay. If we have to critize a movie, not analyze it, I'll be sure to pick *coughtwilightcough*. And since I'm already free from school stuff, I have to make a list of activities for each day to make sure that I HAVE activities. Ideas will be much appreciated.

and last but not least, I wish February will come sooner...

Free

2008-12-17T23:09:00.003+07:00

No lyrics for today... My eyes are sore and I think I'm ready to go to sleep. I just want to say a few words before I go to sleep...

11:11, make a wish. Done.

So by the way, school is OUT. I've done my business communication skills assignment, so I only have two assignments left to do! About the Mass Communication II assignment... I guess I'm going to pick The Road, which is based on a novel by Cormac Mccarthy. I don't know if I find another film to analyze.
My friends and I planned a fun weekend for this week. Sleep over at my house and zoo in the morning! Seriously never been this excited, even though I live 3 minutes away from the zoo...

I guess that's it for today.
Oh, and one more thing.. I so wish I could smack him on the head. Dude that would be freakin' sweet.

Minus 1

2008-12-16T21:29:00.002+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"The fire used to burn
In your heart and in your eyes
You used to dream, you used to care, you used to love, you used to fight for anything at all
You cover up your bedroom wall with who you want to be
Now you're afraid to be yourself, so you search the mall for something else
You read magazines and watch MTV
You practiced it and everything
Oh, your dressed to impressed but you look like a drag queen"

Finally, 2 more classes and then school is OUT. Sadly, there's a three assignments that will haunt me this holiday. God bless, God bless.

So, Winda and I talked about how horrible Crocs is. Their ugly design, uncomfortable rubber, and etc, etc. And then when we turned around we saw one of our classmates was actually WEARING one....in ORANGE.... can you imagine what that would look like? Uh huh, yeah, horrible! Winda told me that my other classmate was wearing one too, in blue... Some guys never learn.
A good news is, the road trip to Yogyakarta is back on! So that will be my plan for Christmas! I hope you (who ever) read this, have a great Holiday!

December 15th

2008-12-15T21:16:00.002+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"And if I can sing this out loud, I'd scream it to the cloud
And everyone in this town will know what I'm about
Rather die than feel this pain take me over again
Its so hard to let you go.."

Phew, today was a cool day. I said cool not good.
Happy Birthday to Deandra
I'm short on money UNLIKE a certain person who bought those expensive shoes that I could only buy a pair or two o.O hints: Cocky Fool.

There's a meaning behind all of those pictures (of course). The 1st picture includes Nathan Young of Anberlin, Adam Lazzara of Taking Back Sunday, Kyle Burns of Forever The Sickest Kids, Chris Kamrada from There For Tomorrow, Jasper, Cheese, and oh I dont know that other guy's name. They're all Dea's idols. I even searched for Adam Lazzara and Nathan Young's autograph! The second picture, I was in it! There's a picture of me and Dea and around us are, Nathan Young and Stephen Christian, Adam Lazzara and Matt Rubano, Kyle Burns and Jonathan cook, and oh I cant remember their names(??). So, it was always like that from the start... Those guys that I cant remember the name were the first one we ever liked. We were like a pair, just like them. We're inseparable! Well, not literally.
I am Deandra's babysitter, although I'm younger than her. And I don't mind, really.

Arti sent a text message to Thalita that made me a little bit sad, okay sad. She said she was sorry that she couldn't come to the last surprise party with me. I mean, its true... No more surprise party for me, gonna go to Aussie next February. This is why I hate good times sometimes. It makes it harder to leave.

To end this post, I want to say:
I'm rich and I don't wear cheap shoes.
I'm popular and you're not.

No, this is actually a sarcasm for, hints: Cocky Fool. Eveeeeeeeeerybody I know will definitely know what I mean by this.

Bigger Scars Makes Better Stories

2008-12-14T01:17:00.002+07:00

Not that I did it on purpose! This happened when my hand hit the unfinished stairs in my house. I wouldn't cut myself like that, it hurts like HELL and I'm not pain's biggest fan. The blood was more than that, and it was funny, I don't know, people always said that I'm too emo (because of my music, which is actually not really emo), and now this happened! Hahaha, I'm not emo though.

I can see what's ahead of me.

2008-12-12T22:50:00.002+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"And all that's done and said
There's a part of me that's dead
Nearly giving up on you
Giving up on you"

I laughed so hard today and that could only mean one thing. I couldn't even think about it, but I know it will happen.

I met my home stay friends, summer 2006, at fx around 10. It was fun, I missed them so much! We had a great time talking about what happened in Sydney and Canberra, and I guess I would give anything to go relive that moment.
12, it was time to go to school and meet my 'beautiful' teacher plus his test, which wasn't so hard... if you studied :D And then.. at the computer lab, Winda and I didn't really pay attention to what the teacher told us to do.. We were too busy searching for some good restaurants.
17, we went to Soeryo and had a great time.

It seems like today's a great day, and it is, really, but....... you know what happen if you laughed too hard right?

Happy Holidays:

2008-12-10T19:28:00.001+07:00

they're da bomb!
hahahaha

A few days back

2008-12-10T07:20:00.001+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

" I know that I've been dancing around the truth
Whoa, you tell me what the hell
I'm supposed to do
And I, I'm a little bit agitated
With a slight scent of denial"

Let me tell you one thing, stupid is not attractive. Nor is your face.
And there's no way, no way, I could secretly like you, no possible way.
You're not the only guy who has that name so, suck it.

Bad news, those nights without sleeping, staying up late, and too much coffee, has damaged my kidney! My stomach really isn't my best friend.
The good news...... It's almost christmas! Can you believe it? 2008 has went by so fast! I feel like it was just yesterday I started 9th grade! The tree is already up and shining on the 1st floor of my school, and it made me smile every time i stepped in!
And on February 2009, I'm going to fly off to Australia and began my first year... wish me luck! Oh and I still need luck for Soundwave ticket.

By the way, I continued watching North By Northwest, it's a good film, still I fell asleep, well that's just me! Hahaha. After that we watched a wee bit part of The Year Of Living Dangerously, which is a film about Indonesia in 1965. Mick said that Soekarno used to name every year, and he named 1965 as The Year Of Living Dangerously. I've never heard of that movie before, turned out it was banned. Indonesia didnt allow them to shoot in the country so they shoot it in the Philipines.

Mel Gibson was in it. Dang, he was hot!

4:124

2008-12-09T00:25:00.002+07:00

"If any do deeds of righteousness - be they male or female - and have faith, they will enter Heaven, and not the least injustice will be done to them."

Amazing Vocalist (Updated)

2008-12-07T17:11:00.003+07:00

1. Stephen Christian
Anberlin

2. Fred Mascherino
The Color Fred

3. David Strachman
Every Avenue

4. Christofer Drew
NeverShoutNever!

5. Shane Henderson
Valencia

Wishes

2008-12-07T15:09:00.001+07:00

I wish I could get into a car and be on the road.
Driving and thinking, it seems that my mind works well when I'm moving.
Plus, the motion carried me to sleep.

I just want to run away for awhile. Unfortunately, I really can't do that.

Been translated+shortened
(talk about (censored for every body's sake)'s last post,

W: He said that? What a show off.
N: Yes. (talk about the exact post), I think I'm going crazy. All I know it's supposed to be a private thing.
W: And still, you wait for a person like that?
N: I'm so tired. What the hell is wrong with him??
W: I think he made (censored for every body's sake), so he could talk about those things (that's possibly, mostly, bad). Maybe God wants to show you that he's not worth crushing.
N: Yeah, I'm sure God has his plan... Must I suffer this much? It's supposed to be a turn off, but noooooooope, curse my feelings.
W: We're suppose to master ourselves, that's your choice to be happy.
N: Am I putting too much faith in my prayers?
W: What's the background of your prayers? Is that what YOU want or what GOD wants?
N: I don't even know what God wants, it's too difficult for me to figure out. Hope, then no hope. I wish I could just run away.
W: What God wants is simply the best for His children, maybe at first, its not like what you hoped for, but in the end we're going to be amazed. Now change your prayers, not "God I want this and that to happen," but "God, I believe you love me and want the best for me, help me to be ready to accept whatever you give me." Good luck amigo!

Now that's and advice.
Not
...................... or I cant help you.

:)

Dream or time travel?

2008-12-05T22:07:00.005+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"And if I try to turn my life back around

Its so hard cause I'm on a path I've never been down

And I've got to think that this might be the one way that I can go"

I just love Valencia. I keep listening to them over and over again all week. I'm looking forward to this weekend because my friends are coming to my house. I missed them.

I have a question:

If you had a dream about your past, something that you have experienced in the past. In that dream you know exactly what would happen, yet you cant do anything about it. You know that its your past and you know that it's not really happening (at that time).

Or you were there (in your past) and you can see yourself. The other you doesn't know what would happen next, but you do. And again, you cant do anything about it.

Now, my question is.... what do you call it? Are you having a dream, or are you time-traveling?

I think it's time traveling but I'm not quite sure myself. If it happened like situation number two, I'm pretty sure that's a dream, because logically that couldn't happen, me watching me? It's impossible... isn't it?

I'm curious to know the answer.

Laugh some more

2008-12-03T22:16:00.004+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"I can say

I've got to say

Dollar by dollar your soul get smaller"

(this is based on me & my friend's opinion. If you do not agree.. no need to be all mad, people have different opinion)

So, today winda, her sister, and I watched Twilight. Let me tell you, it's the funniest movie I've seen all week! I dont like the camera shots, not all of them but mostly. The background musics are tacky, and just plain funny. In my opinion, winda's too, they used too much close-up which is very similar to Indonesian soap opera. Dun dun dun.

I laughed so hard when I saw Jasper's expression when he first met Bella. 'he just turned vegetarian.' hahahahahahaha!
The wind effects, slow motion, and those other things made me lauuuuuuuugh, I seriously wouldnt consider this as a thriller, might as well be drama-comedy. My disappointment are mostly (like I've said before) edward and bella. Dont get me wrong, Robbert Pattinson is hot and dreamy and he did a very good job.. but i dont know, I just thought that Edward is going to be more than that.

The story line are flat, the only interesting and good part (in our opinion) was the fighting scene. and the only time I felt like ripping my heart out was when Edward tried to suck the venom out of bella's body, but couldn't stop. and it went back to flat again. I thank God i didnt have to sacrifice that much to watch this, especially watching it on Premier. oh so not worth the money. I'd rather continue watching North By North West.

I feel like Mass Communication class is getting into my brain!

December

2008-12-02T07:13:00.003+07:00

T0day's lyrics of the day:

"This is her addiction

This is her fame

This is the place where she deals with the pain

Sometimes the stars in her sky hold against the rain"

Phew, I'm on my school's public computer and waiting for my friends to show up. Well, a lot happen yesterday. We've been told that yesterday was Karl's last class, which was a HUGE bummer since that was the only reason me and my friends chose economics. We wanted to avoid her.... and now we got her for economics. Booooooooooooooo. Tomorrow I have a mid test for Business Communication Skills... Not a hard subject, but still...

Oh yeah, I'm sorry if this whole blog full of words makes you dizzy.. Well I'm just not stupid enough to take picture in every.single.thing that happened to me. And can you see that I'm trying to hold back my habit of using bad words such as (fuck, etc.)? Yeah that too.
This topic came yesterday when Winda and I were discussing (censored for everybody's sake)'s blog. Which shows that he's a little bit stupid, self-centered, arrogant, etc etc. Hahaha. Sorry if it sounded mean, but its true. For the love of God! He is (censored for everybody's sake)! He make sooooooooooooongs, try to write a little bit more serious.. I know you're more than that. Even if that's not why you make that thing. But come on, a little literature wouldn't hurt right? a little intelligent wouldn't too. If you want to be all-fun all-play kinda thing, well go ahead don't do it 50:50. Make it a fun one, show everybody friendliness. Not that world of fame. Build an image. Destroy a bad image. Now, I'm looking forward to read your next post.

That's it I guess. I just remember I have a lab test today and I haven't studied a thing. Gotta go do a last minute study. Mwahahaha.
Talk to you guys later!

official!

2008-11-29T20:57:00.000+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:
"Love is here
Love is now
Love is flowing from his hand, from his brow

Love is near
It sattisfies
Stream of mercy flowing from his side"

It's offical! I've moved! But unfortunately, I still don't have an internet connection so I'm doing the updates from my phone. Not really comfortable.. I have tons of thing I want to write, but I guess later.

Moved

2008-11-28T15:12:00.005+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"In about one year you'll have it all figured out
These big city dreams are what you're about
Walking like strangers among these states
Only time will tell how long I can wait"

It's still 3 pm but the sky's dark. I thought it's already 6 something. I've moved all my stuff. Took.15.boxes. I'll write later when I'm done unpacking these boxes. I need some good luck.

before I go.. lets do this:

night: Phew, I finished the unpacking all today! I was so tired and my mom ordered japanese foods, hmm hmm yummy. Now I'm watching Get Smart and busy getting my feet to stop bleeding! I accidentally broke a glass and i guess i was careless enough to step on it hehe. but this is so cool i havent bleed in a long time! I guess I'll tell you about mom's new curse word.... "dork" yup! she used it. We were going to make a turn and the motorcycle did something wrong and my mom said "YOU DORK" I was like "what the..." and she said "well its nicer than shit." all i could do was nod my head.

Woops, 5 minutes to midnight. I better watch nickelodeon. Bye!

thanksgiving

2008-11-27T20:14:00.003+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"You've got me walking through the back door, back door
Hoping that I'll find you sitting there
You know that I will find you somehow
And I better be well prepared

To change the way that I believe
This story's old but not complete
I need that off-track set mind where everything is fine
If I'm ever gonna meet you on the other side"

Happy thanksgiving people! Have a wonderful thanksgiving with you family, or friends, or best friends, or old friends or long friends, or even enemies! Eat everything your mom cooks! because this is a special occasion!

Goodness.

2008-11-26T19:57:00.005+07:00

Today's lyrics of the day:

"Mr. c-o-o-l at all the shows
Your a-t-t-i-t-u-d-e is old.
This is r-e-a-l-i-t-y."

Phew, I just got home from my new house, cleaning up and putting stuff. So tired, but totally worth the energy. I got cramps from it too.
Oh, and by the way.. I'm in love with Bayside and Copeland's new album! You should check them out.. and buy. They're awesome! not like *coughlakilakisukaperempuan* with their standard songs. ^^v

I'm gonna go take a shower now.
:)

Oh,

2008-11-25T22:42:00.003+07:00

Oh! So THIS is why they're my favorite band.

They.are.amazing.no.doubt.

edit: I'm just gonna quote a little some some.

"i've had people in the past that like talking on their cellphone and be smoking around the fans and like 'talk to me in a minute' and that's not the time and the place to take people for granted especially your own fans, the people that brought you to the show, paid your ticket, paying your per diem and getting you into your next show, that's the last person you ever want to be cocky to"-Stephen Christian

?

2008-11-25T00:26:00.002+07:00

"Do you ever put your arms out and just spin and spin and spin? Well, that's what love is like. Everything inside of you tells you to stop before you fall, but you just keep going."

11:11

2008-11-24T23:09:00.001+07:00

I miss her :'(

Moonday

2008-11-24T14:54:00.001+07:00

Hello!
I just watched This Christmas, and it's awesome! I can't believe I missed it last year!

Economics was fun today, its the same as usual no real lectures, it's just like free-time. One week before the mid test, I don't know how am i going to learn all of those chapters ^^ Oh another news, now since Karl (the teacher) just turned into a moslem.. he has a moslem name... Akbar. BooYay. By the way there's this tiny thing that happened to me that destroyed my last hours in school. Well, we (Me, Winda, Sasha, Erica, Michelle, Riska, and Karl) were sitting at the cafetaria watching TL's music video on mtv.. and as soon as the video was finished.. Guess what played after it? Yuuuuuuuuuuuuuuup, you guessed it *coughlakilakisukaperempuancough* I stormed out of the room, of course. And seriously, the hearbeats and all were freaking me out. I mean, I was so weak. When they came back to the class Winda said that Karl said "he's so white! he's pale!" etc, etc. Man, I should've been there! That would be hillarious!

Enough chit chat I'm starting to get dizzy again..
Oh, and one more thing for that group.... Make a new song PLEASE. and one that's trully amazing. not the one-kind rhythm kind of thing. I'd love to hear that.
Write something about me, that's interesting. Haha. Just kidding.

Few words before I go to sleep.

2008-11-23T23:56:00.000+07:00

Well, well, well, today was mom's birthday and i loved it.
that's all I'm going to say for now.. This whole computer radiation is making me dizzy!
I'll write when I'm feeling absolutely better! which i hope is soon!

Save me!

2008-11-22T22:13:00.000+07:00

Worse news.. I'm not getting better. Its all because of my Stupid stomache. I'll tell you the real name when I get a dictionary. Wee. I got dizzy just from typing on this shitty phone.

Right now, I'm watching Ariel 3.

I'm such a dork.

2008-11-21T22:01:00.001+07:00

Bad news :( I'm sick.. I haven't been sick since....... I don't know, few months. And I feel terrible!

By the way, I've just finished watching Christmas movies. And I cried... Hahaha, yes I did. I'm such a dork! I bought like 5 christmas movies to watch until christmas! I cant wait until December!

:')

2008-11-20T23:06:00.000+07:00

"When did we think that this would be easy?
We must have been out of our minds
We were holding so tight
It just slipped through our fingers
But we won't let go"

Relation

2008-11-20T14:11:00.000+07:00

Blah, it's only 2.12 pm but I'm already tired as hell! And I'm very, very hungry, I haven't had any breakfast or lunch. My stomach is on strike.

I haven't really done anything today, beside going to gym, so I'm going to talk about yesterday.
So after I got back from Starbucks, Oakwood (just to sit and talk with Winda), my house seemed empty and quiet. I was about to go to my room when my mother called me, I looked in her room, but she wasn't there, I thought I was hallucinating, and my mother came out from my sister's room. Turns out she's playing computer games in my sister's room -.- and I joined her. Haha. we ended up playing a mystery hunt games for 3 hours, and had to stop because we're too dizzy to continue.
Later that day, I went to Cilandak Town Square for some dinner. And convinced my dad to buy me a book and a christmas tree (like in my post before). I was quiet in the car because I got too carried away with my book. And my dad said "You're so quiet. Book it's like your pacifier, and you're the baby." And then my mom said "It's all our fault though, we bought her a set of books (POLDI!!!!!) when she was two." and they told me about how I always bring a book with me when I'm going to the toilet even though I can't read it and how I could remember every story that my mother read to me.

So it was all good, my parents should know I'll grow up to be a bookworm!

The goodness shines.

2008-11-19T21:11:00.000+07:00

Wow, I cant believe it's only a month (plus a few days) until christmas! I'm so excited! I just got back from Ace Hardware and saw all the pretty christmas trees and silly looking Santa's. I made my dad promised to buy me a mini (or if I'm lucky the medium) christmas tree to put in our new house. I cant wait to move! My mom and dad said that we could move this Sunday. But, I really doubt that..

I'm going to end this post, but 1 thing I want to say to you-know-who:

"if I saw you at that time, I'm going to think, 'damn, he's going to be super arrogant.'"

The truth

2008-11-18T19:08:00.000+07:00

"Life is what you make of it
So make your faults, wonder what we could bend
Looking back on all of this,
I wanna know I made the best

Saving my rest for the grave"
-Take A Step Back; Every Avenue

Forget tomorrow.

2008-11-18T01:00:00.000+07:00

I can't sleep, again, no wonder, of course. Maybe I should stay in a car because I'll fall asleep easier. All the motion and sounds always makes me so sleepy.
I haven't had dinner. Which is sad because I'm now starving. And there's no yogurt left.

I was going through my old posts and realized I had the best time in August, and since September, my life went down-hill. So I rewind my memories trying to find the reason I'm totally happy, and that's my friend, because I prayed almost everyday. Yup, that's true, come to think of it, I was a really good girl. And I didn't sleep at night, which is how I like it. I fell asleep at 1 pm, woke up at 12 am, and fall asleep again sometimes in the pm. And I really liked it that way, I have more energy if I didn't sleep. It's crazy, but it's true. Mom thought I was consuming way too much coffee and that was the thing that kept me up and running. Hahaha.

By the way, there's something really, really, really important I need to tell you.
MJ needs a surgery. 3 surgeries. :(
There's a hole in his back and both of his armpits. (I feel like laughing). And I need to perform an emergency surgery to sew the holes back up. Unfortunately, my sewing skills are not that good, bad actually. My mom once told me, that I was (_) this close for not GRADUATING PRE-K. Hahahahahahhahaha, that's because my sewing skills were a mess! I hope my mom was making that stuff up.

Re-do

2008-11-17T21:07:00.000+07:00

ANSWER THE QUESTIONS BELOW, DO A GOOGLE IMAGE SEARCH WITH YOUR ANSWER, TAKE A PICTURE FROM THE 1ST PAGE OF RESULTS, DO IT WITH MINIMAL WORDS OF EXPLANATION

1. The Age You'll Be On Your Next Birthday

Sweet.

2. Place You Want To Travel To

Boston.

3. Your Favorite Place

"Home is anywhere our family is together"

4. Your FavoriteFood

mashed potatoes.

5. Your Favorite Pet

puppies.

6. Favorite Color Combination

blue and purple!

7. Favorite Piece Of Clothing

shirts

8. Your All Time Favorite Song

Disney.

9. Favorite TV Show
Ugly Betty

10. First Name of Your Significant Other / Crush

11. Which Town Do You Live In

12. Your Screen / Nickname

13. Your First Job

14. Your Dream Job

15. One Bad Habit That You Have

16. Worst Fear

Hell.

17. Things You'd Like To Do Before Die

18. The First Thing You'll Buy If You Get $1,000,000

Australian Soundwave '09 Ticket.
Plane ticket.
MIBT's tuition fees.
Accomodation.
Books.

A (very) fatal mistake.

2008-11-17T19:04:00.000+07:00

My, oh my, I've been so careless I forgot what I posted here months and months ago. Damn. I should check these things more often. As you may, or may not, notice there's two posts missing. I'm sure you don't notice, but yes I've deleted two posts that I regret posting. But there's one I'm going to re-do.

Today was a very interesting day... Economic was great! No, it's not because I understand the subject, I still don't.. But, I don't know, its just fun. Karl's class always turns out to be fun. Especially marketing in last semester. Man, I miss it.

Keeping my fingers tight for tomorrow's presentation!
I actually have something meaningful to say.... But........ I can't remember it :)

statement.

2008-11-16T21:54:00.000+07:00

I'm not all ears. I have mouth too.
And just like any other mouth, it wants to be listened.

I'm glad there's school.

2008-11-16T20:11:00.000+07:00

Oh yes, the title... that's the truth. I've never been this glad to go to school and see the lecturer talking on and on and on. And surprisingly, I can't wait until morning comes and go to Economics. No matter how shitty that subject could be.

Weekend? Well, yesterday was amazing! I had so much fun! But for today, err, not so much. I spent all night crying, and when I wake up which was at 1.15 pm, I was still tired. Obviously, I can't go back to sleep, because well.. that's unhealthy.

Oh and also, I want to ask (cough, cough), what they think their 'followers' like best, their face, or their sound? On my opinion and tiny research, they love your f.a.c.e best :) sorry to say, but your sounds are hella standard. Oh and try to screw your faces. Lets just see how they react.

Tag tag tag

2008-11-14T21:03:00.000+07:00

10 Random Facts About Me.

Honey, this will bore you :)

1. I'm hidden.

I can count the people that trully know the real me and I show them the real me with my two hands. Why? Because... I tend to please people. I often said things they want to hear, not what I think.

2. I'm addicted to the Internet.

This is in no way healthy.

3. I'm a bookworm.

Read, read, read, read, read. Thats what I do.

4. I'm a dreamer.

Everybody will probably know this.

5. I love coffee and dunkin donuts.

Please note this, I love dunkin donuts, and dunkin donuts only.

6. I'm pretty obsessed with Anberlin.

I'm sure you all could see that.

7. I really want to go to Boston University and take a degree in Fine Arts.

I'm working on media and communication now.

8. I have a pretty active imagination.

Hellayah.

9. I want to have my own library.

I dont know if its possible, but I really want to!

10. I'm in love with Disney.

Nuff said.

I'll tag Winda & Sasha.

Okay, this homework had their own rules.
1. Each blogger must post this rules.
2. Each blogger starts with ten random facts/habits about themselves.
3. Blogger that are tagged need to write about their own blog about their ten things and post. these rules . You need to choose ten people to get tagged and list their names.
4. Don't forget to live them a comment telling them they've been tagged and to read your blog.

Hello, I'm not looking forward to Twilight.

2008-11-13T23:03:00.000+07:00

Yup, the title says it all.
I'm no longer waiting for Twilight the movie. When I first saw the first trailer, I thought it was amazing, and I absolutely cannot wait for it to come out. But, after more and more clips from the movie. I thought it was going to be oh-so disappointing.
I know it's hard to make a 300-something pages into a 2 hour movie, but, hey, that's why i'm not 'looking forward' to it.
My disappointment is mostly on Edward and Bella. Dont get me wrong, they are great actors, but I just thought that Edward is more colder than that, more cynics, and more well, hard. and Bella, I dont know... I just thought she's going to be more.........

But, I make these judgement from clips I saw on YouTube. I haven't watch the actual film. I hope I'll change my mind, because I'm such a big fan on the books.

I seek comfort in tv.

2008-11-13T22:28:00.000+07:00

Well, well, well, I just watched 5 Spongebob's new episode! I LOVE them. Watching Spongebob made me miss Nickelodeon so much. 'Thanks' to the cable company, I now dont have cable. Weeee, screw you. Oh, and I want more Ugly Betty episodes. I somehow love Ugly Betty more than Heroes or Gossip Girl. First, I think Gossip Girl is getting more and more boring. Same drama only different people and kind of predictable.

Change topic, I just found out that my new house is only 10 minutes away from Dunkin Donuts!!!!! Yeaaaaaah. I'm going to buy lemon sprinkle every day. every day. everyday.
By the way, I had the craziest thought today.. I want to be a tour guide. Hahahaha. Seriously. Maybe it's because I love to talk, I love telling people something, and what the heck, I love history. So maybe, maybe, if you happen to be from outside Indonesia and want to come Jakarta sometime soon, tell me! I would be more than glad to show you around my beloved city.

Oh yeah, I posted new songs here. Whoever listens to it... Do you like it? I personally love it. :)

We've reached the end of my post for today.

conclusion of the day:

2008-11-12T18:31:00.000+07:00

similarities? all in a band. all handle the voc duties.
haha have fun.

Oh dear..

2008-11-12T12:13:00.001+07:00

As usual.. I fell asleep in my media class, its not that I don't like it, really its my favorite subject.

By the way, I feel terribly scared right now. I'm turning into a paronia. I couldn't exactly tell why, I guess there's a lot of things going on in my mind. And the worst part is: I become easily tired because of all the fast heartbeat and the worries in me. I wish I know how to calm myself. Hah. New goal.

I was this (_) close to forgetting him, to ignore the feelings I have for him. AND its like he's back. So, the point is he IS back.

God bless me.
And you too, of course.

And if I was brave.

2008-11-11T23:54:00.000+07:00

There's not much to say about today.
Although I've finished my essay! Oh hell yeah! By the way, I'm going to have a test tomorrow about camera angle shots and such, and I lost my list. Congratulation to me, right? Blah.

And about the book I told you yesterday.. It.is.amazing. Really. The whole time I read it, I feel like I'm not reading somebody's book. I feel like I was Sam, I mean, it felt like Daniel (the author) was telling me about life, and love, and everything else.
I would love to give it to my mom and dad, but I know they wouldn't read it because they dont like to read. It's true, they said it themselves. I guess I'm going to read it all over again. and that's how amazing the book is.

I just left this for 45 minutes! I dont know why I typed that.
It's time to end the post!

A quote came to me

2008-11-10T20:18:00.000+07:00

"I really believe the world might be a safer place if everyone who felt vulnerable wore flashers that said, 'I have a problem and I'm doing the best I can.'"
That's coming from a book I'm reading called Letters To Sam. I chose that book because the saying on the cover caught my attention. It says 'A Grandfather's lessons on love, loss, and the gifts of life'. That was enough to make me put down the rest of my magazine and bought this book. And so far, I love it.

To be honest with you, nothing exciting happened these last few days. No surprises. No nothing. My mood was.. terrible. I have an essay due in wednesday and I havent write a word. In days like those, I really wish I'll move to Melbourne tomorrow. Despite all the things I'll miss.
I am oh-so-very lazy, although I go to the gym 3 times a week. A lot more than before. Well, there's some good news too. First, my computing scores are not bad at all! So I have something to be proud of. No class for tomorrow. And a week closer to my new home!
But there's this one thing I need help with and its called e.c.o.n.o.m.i.c.s; I have no idea, NO idea what Karl was talking about and I have no idea how am I going to learn all of those for the final exam. I'm just crossing my fingers and pray to God.

A tag from Winda

2008-11-08T22:19:00.000+07:00

EVERY FIVE THINGS IN YOUR LIFE!

The rules to fill this are:

1) You own a blog where you're gonna post this to,

2) You currently feel bored,

3) You won't skip any question,

4) You're alive (doh!), and

5) You're gonna send this to 5 friends to fill these up.

Firstly, describe the current you in 5 words:

Oh so very very worried.

5 things you love about life:

Memories

Present

Beauty

Colors

Surprises

5 famous people you'd love to meet:

James McAvoy

Stephen Christian

Matt Rubano

John Lennon

Morrisey

5 movies you love:

The Sound Of Music

Becoming Jane

Lion King

Escape From Huang Shi

Hairspray

5 professions you'd love to have:

Writer

Designer (Not Fashion)

Editor

Director

Wife

5 best authors:

Paul Coelho

Stephanie Meyers

Jane Austen

J.K Rowling

Jodi Picoult

5 inspirations:

Music

God

Stephen Christian

World

Experience

5 favorite stuff:

iPod

Books

Photos

Rings

5 things you hate:

Arrogance

Lizards

Snakes

Blood

Bitch

5 favorite places:

My house

Grandma's house

Coffee Shop

Bookstores

Park

5 girls/guys you are currently liking:

I have one

But you probably wont believe

or care

or take me seriously

so. done.

5 favorite people to chat with:

Anyone who

Enjoy

Having

Conversation with

5 things you wanna improve more about yourself:

More Mature

Less Sensitive

Not to over-think something

Live in reality

Control over my emotion

5 things you would take to a deserted island:

iPod that never ever die

Books

Few people

MJ (doll)

and he wouldn't hurt. right?

5 places you wanna visit:

New York City

Boston

Scotland

Prague

North/South Pole

5 things you really want:

Him

iSofa

Macbook

New dvd player

Dolphin Mp3 player

5 songs make you cry most:

Thunder

Hero/Heroine

Free

Memories Of You - Ryan Adams

Hopeless Case - Varnadore (at the moment)

5 impossible dreams:

Rule the world

Touch the bottom of the ocean

Meet him tomorrow

Fly

See the world from 'above'

5 dreams in the future:

Graduate MIBT&Deakin

Go to Boston University

Be a wife and a mom

Get a job I love

Live happily

now, send this to 5 people.

me:

2008-11-07T17:13:00.001+07:00

Crazy shoes.

2008-11-05T21:19:00.000+07:00

I dont think I can 'rock' these, but what the hell, a girl can dream right?

worst

2008-11-01T20:35:00.000+07:00

1st of November wasnt such a good day for me.
I couldnt tell anybody, because they wont care. I know they wont. Except maybe Winda because she knew how it felt and usually her words help.

i know now that holding your breath calms you. well me.
i wish my heart could just get out of my body and beats on its own. im effing tired.

doll

2008-10-26T19:02:00.000+07:00

my new friend. i dont care how shitty i look here! that boy is sooooooooooo cute.

and I dont even know his name..... ahhahaha love.

Burnt

2008-10-26T16:23:00.000+07:00

I'm back from Bali.
I'm back to the old routines.
Tomorrow's Economics.
Lazy as f.

fresh air

2008-10-24T00:42:00.000+07:00

"Do not be surprised if your road to romance takes a little bit of a detour today -- but you cannot let yourself become disheartened about it. Just roll with it. The changes you will be going through over the next several days will be for the best, no matter how icky they feel at the time. Stay hopeful and stay cheerful. The image you project to the outside world will eventually come back to you and give you a genuine feeling of joyous and positive emotions."
10/24/2008

I'm off to Bali tomorrow morning. First flight. I'm looking forward to this trip, although it's only for 3 days but at least I get to get away from Jakarta's chaos. Almira and I promised that we will not talk about M or D for as long as this trip lasts. I hope it helps a little. As you all know, I need rehab. But not like drugs or alcohol rehab.
Blah. I dont feel like writing. I want to read.
Oh, oh, I've been reading this book called 'Wasted'. I'm a little bit scared when I read it, because I can't imagine someone actually went through those stuff.
The next book : The Glass Castle (if i'm not mistaken)

Crappy semester

2008-10-22T21:31:00.000+07:00

Oh I'm so used to last semester's friends and schedule, I hate this semester. I wish it could go faster.

First thing that disappointed me : The fact that MWB seperated Nanad, Nita and I with Sasha and Winda and Santi. And the fact that we couldnt trade days.
Second : the fact that John wont be teaching Communication Skills.
Third : I have two classes in one day.
Fourth : No more Rachel, Annora, and Arlene :( :(
Fifth : I'm damned.

astrological

2008-10-20T00:57:00.000+07:00

"No one can intimidate or manipulate you, today -- you will be content to stay on your own path and stick to your own plan. The folks who seem to be trying so hard to get you to change your mind and do things their way don't seem to be very happy. So why do they think they know what they are talking about? You are the person who is best suited to being in charge of your life, and you should feel free to tell anyone that. It's a great way to get the naggers off your back!"

Wahahaha, what a great way to start my day.
By the way, Happy 16th Birthday to Cheras Sjarfi my lovely aunt ;) and happy birthday to Kerri too :) (yesterday)

I wish tomorrow's my birthday.
Oh and for today (it's 1 am) Happy birthday to Amelie and Rosalie!

3:08 AM

2008-10-19T02:44:00.000+07:00

Hello people of earth and maybe other galaxy!

Oh well, I've been thinking... we know exactly that we exist right here on this planet earth, right? But teachers said that in this whole wide world there's other galaxy other than this. Maybe under the name of 'ajfnbqofnbaoncklalca' or 'jfibsdbfksnaklfcdna' that's located 186230548513 miles away from the milky way. What if there's another species like human on the other planet of the other galaxy? Do they know our existence here on earth? Or is it still a mystery to them as is it for us? Do they look like us? Do they talk and walk and move like us? Do they have internet? Can they type? Do they read books? I have thousands of question I've been dying to find out!

Oh well, I want to tell you about my day.
I woke up around 3 pm or was it 3.30? anyway, I woke up and found out that nobody was home. Yes, I was pissed. I cant remember if I then watched Bring It On or Hating Alison Ashley today, because I did the exact same thing yesterday and I get the movie mixed up in my head, haha, anyway, after long hours of doing nothing and eating nothing because unfortunately no food interests me, I went back to my room with the light still turned off, raised the volume of my iTunes and laid back. Suddenly, my mom came home, burst in to my room and turned off the speaker and said 'you dont live in your own world. stop listening to the music that loud.' I dont know why but it pisses me off. Like winda said 'what A MOM.'

I changed my hair color today, nothing too fancy, just a lighter brown that's all, you can't really see it. October wasn't that great, but at least it's better than September.

Hahahahaha, the song 'Down Under' just played! I love that song! I went to Sydney last summer and went to UEC for two weeks, and on the end of the lectures, the teacher taught us that song! I ended up remembering all the words and download it, hahahaha. What a memory!

Wah, I ran out of words. So see you!!

chery on top

2008-10-15T00:37:00.000+07:00

anberlin + tbs = LOVE.

swimming

2008-10-14T00:30:00.000+07:00

Unfortunately, my brain didnt want to go to sleep just yet. I'm wide awake even though my lights are off.

A few minutes ago, I was wondering. Did he, the one who should remain nameless, ever read this blog? If yes, did he realize it was about him? If yes, was he disappointed? angry? sad? happy? excited? I will never know. Will I? And after I know it, and lets say he was angry, should I delete the whole thing, although it's my feelings? Or if he was happy, should I keep making those posts, so he could be happy all the time, because I love him and want him to be happy? What if he doesnt care? What if he does care? Too many questions are swimming inside my head.

To be honest, I'm scared. I'm scared that God will give me an opportunity to meet him as fans and celebrity. I will not be ready. I'm going to look pretty darn stupid. I'm scared and I'm not ready.

If you're reading this blog and realize it's for you, well- how are you? Is everything okay? Are you happy? Am I bothering you?- See too many questions, again.

I know, this is a boring subject for some people, maybe they'll say 'Get over it already.' or 'please, you're overreacting.' or 'just forget him already' or maybe even, 'stupid girl.' well, I dont expect to you to read, or understand this, or help me (although I'll really appriciate your help). But, this is what's going on inside my mind.

"Love is the closest thing to magic." Is it true? Sometimes I believe it is.

Love is such a confusing thing to think about. It's crazy to think why I even love him. I cant even put it down to words. He might not believe it. People might not believe it. But, really, I'm not the one who feel and deal with all of this, you cant just say 'you're exaggerating' or 'it's not love. You' dont really love him' when I know exactly what I'm feeling. I never lie to myself.

Another question comes in my mind:

Do you believe in dreams comes true?

I do. But it doesnt come from a fairy god mother who saves you when your step sisters ruin your dress and ruin your chance to meet your 'prince charming.' or a wishing well full with pennys. But from God. Anything God wants to happen, happen. It's easy as one, two, three, for God to make things happen. Even if he wants to end the world right now, he can. So, why give up? Even if there's no wishing well, or there's no falling stars, or fairy godmother, the magic of God still exists, right? That's why I dare to dream big and keep believing in it. And I think you should too.

I really can't believe I just write all of this at 1:59 am.

a lilttle some some

2008-10-13T23:09:00.000+07:00

Hi guys, in case you're wondering, I'm not dead yet.

I just want to enjoy my days off, which I obviously cant. Tons of things to do, such as, taking my dog to the vet, checking the new house, packing stuff, do some bank stuff, and gym/yoga (i cant believe my mother sign me up). I haven't unpack my things from Japan. They're still piling.

I will, I repeat WILL write about my trip to Japan. I don't know when, but I will. Trust me. I have a lot of things in my mind right now, and I think it's ready to explode.

Something weird happened to me. My heartbeat wont slow down, it's like a sign or something. At first I thought it was about my final result which turns out fine. But, my heart is beating faster. Oh I hope this is not a sign of something bad is going to happen. And all day today, when I saw food, I immediately want to throw up. I dont know whats wrong with me. I cant even think about food, gave me headache.

I'm still having a jet lag.

I'm sleepy, it's only 11:19 pm.

it's 1:19 am in Japan.

So. see ya.

apology

2008-10-10T22:58:00.000+07:00

i'm sorry! i'm going to be out for maybe two, three, four days?
i'm currently enjoying my day off before i have to start semester two! ecomics here i come! baahh. hahaha
so, i'm not going to write a lot, but stay tune for my trip to Japan! it was amazing, tons of photos! or maybe i'll just gonna make those photo blog? hmm not sure

sit tight!

2 kill time

2008-10-02T23:04:00.000+07:00

Okay, so I'm now in Changi Airport, Singapore. Waiting for my plane thats going to fly me to Osaka, Japan. The plane leaves at 1.10 am (singapore time) and I dont know what I should do until that time. So here I am on a public computer that doesnt have chair (so i'm standing up right now) and have only 12 minutes left to write this post.

I bought a book today, a few hours ago, the title is 'Can Robot be Human?' if i'm not mistaken. It's a good book. and I just finished reading 'the perks of being a wallflower'. i liked it too. so, i kinda brought 4 books with me right now, yeah, i'm a bookworm, that's a good thing though, right? hahaha.

I'm so looking forward to this trip. I seriously couldnt wait to get out of jakarta, not that i hate it but really, i'm bored and want to go someplace new and here i am going to japan. yaaay.
first day is going to be universal studio, yup, straight from the airport, so i better get lots and lots of sleep. 5 hours from here to japan, hmmm, i think i can make it work.
the last two days will be disney land and disney world...... i dont know about you, but i love that place. seriously, its like i'm in a totally different world! i've been to disney land anaheim and disney land hong kong and this will be my first time in disney land tokyo, im so excited!!!

i'll post pictures as soon as i get home and put it on the computer and not too lazy to upload it ;)
so excited.
well............ it's already 12:12 maybe i better go to the waiting room now..... or maybe i'll write for another minute?

Aaahhh i miss my friends both jhs and college's friends.... i want to meet everybody! especially nadya, winda, and sasha, weeeeee, we've known each other for like 6 months? and im already used to you guys hahahaha. miss you!
and i also miss my thalita, dea,mahy,arti, and anin
we used to hang out together on holidays like this. mmhhmm, make sure we meet when i get back!
okay, the annoucement lady just say something about my flight so maybe i should go now. haaahha. bye ;)

new surrender is finally out!

2008-10-02T12:35:00.001+07:00

give me this and i'll love you forever

2008-09-29T06:28:00.000+07:00

collide

2008-09-27T11:37:00.000+07:00

well, well, well, it's finally holliday.......... 3 weeks......... boooyay.
i missed school already.. i have nothing, i repeat, NOTHING to do and it kills me. I'm waiting for the clock to turn 12 so I could go buy some dvds and spend the day on my bed watching movies.
Oh yeah, I watched the presidential debate today. I really like Obama and I kinda don't like McCain ahhahaha.

So... I don't know, I'll give you picture of the day:

weeeee!! pink shining dress, who doesnt love that hahahaha. I can't remember whos birthday was it, but I'm pretty sure it's a birthday party.

By the way, my mom and dad left for singapore this morning to watch F1, I'm bummed that I couldn't go with them. All I want to do in singapore is: buy books & cds. Hahaha, seriously, I'm in no mood to go shopping for some clothes or shits. Oh well, 5 days untill Japan! I'm soooo excited, I've never been to Japan before, so it'll be my first time! Yay! I also can't wait for next month's AP, the cover is Forever The Sickest Kids, and there's Anberlin in it!
October is going to be pretty sweet!
I will also move to my new house in October!
Heck Yeah!

Look at the clock it's 12:03, gotta go take a shower and hit the nearest dvd store!
hahaha, bye!

A reason for me to consider a vegetarian diet.

2008-09-25T23:37:00.000+07:00

So, yeah, I went to a traditional market with my grandma today. I had no idea that we were going to buy some meat. I usually see that kind of things wrapped up in the super market. Oh, how this trip changes my mind.

yes, they are smelly, but they're sooooooo adorable.

So I walked to the 3rd floor, without knowing what's waiting for me in the upper floor.

this is what I was greeted by

It shocked me, I feel sick. I wanted to throw up. Believe me that's not the worst thing.

Oh my goodness. It is a cow's feet and it is A COW'S BRAIN. Brain, brain, brain, brain!!!!!! oh and TOUNGE. TOUNGE.TOUNGE. Oh god...... and there is one thing I couldn't stand. Cow's tail. Yeah, cow's TAIL. I have no idea why they sell it, but seriously, it's just sick. I couldn't even took out my cell phone and snapped a picture of it. I was looking down the whole time and wished my grandma will hurry up. Everybody there was a pshyco.
Just imagine, the cute and adorable cow.... choped up into pieces and were hanging on that thingy. Oh my god, I will never ever go there again. NOT EVER.

This made me think about how many meat people eat, and how many cow suffer. Wow is all I can say. You have to see it with your own eyes.
Tell me if you want to see it, I'll take you there. But I'll wait outside =)

Consider this. Go Vegan, vegetarian, pecestarians, or whatever. Or just lessen your meat consumtion. Just think of that images when you want to eat it....... It makes my head hurts, to be honest.

if only the sun was my bff.

2008-09-25T02:30:00.000+07:00

Weahoooooo. 1 more test to go and I'm free! Free I tell ye! Hahaha.
To be honest, I think Academic Study Skill wasn't that bad. It's actually a lot easier than the one Mike gave for practice, but the short answers questions, totaly killed me.
I woke up half an hour ago, 2 am. I seriously had some hilarious dreams. Hahaha. I could laugh just thinking about it.

Oh yeh yeh, pray for me!
I'm going to (hopefully) Melbourne around the end of January or February. I don't want to spend too much time here, it's time that I actually move. But, if the intake is in February, it means that I'll be finished in sometimes around September, but year two doesn't start until february? That means I have 6 months off. That's what my mothers been worrying. What should I do in the free time, IF, I go. Do you know what a 16 year old can do? Intern in a radio station maybe? or in a magazine? I'd like that. Mom said I should try and find out what am I going to do there. And I already have the list.
To be honest the main main MAIN reason I want to go in February is because Australian Soundwave Festival 2009! ANBERLIN AND BAYSIDE ARE GOING TO PLAY FOR GOD'S SAKE!!!!! I HAVE TO SEE THEM, LIKE MUST. So yeah, that's why. Hahaha. the ticket is around AU110 I think. It's not that bad, you know. I think, it's kinda cheap. So keep your fingers (and mine) crossed, pray, pray, pray. :)

It rained last night! Oh, how I missed the rain! I want to jump out of the car and play in the rain, but people is going to think I'm an idiot. But, seriously, if I'm not 75 km/hour down the freeway, I would play in the rain. Hahahahaha. Stoopid. Oh, oh, and 1 more thing..... The traffic.... was unbearable! God! Motorcycle really needs to know the road's manner. Heat, heat.

Weeeee, 1 week until Japan time! I can't wait, I'm so excited! And guess what, I have to wait on Singapore's airport for about 4/5 hours. Wew. Thank God it's Singapore and not Indonesia. Hahaha. Heck yeah.

Anybody know when's Ugly Betty is going to start again? I can't wait.

Fackt.

2008-09-24T02:27:00.000+07:00

It's 2:28 in the morning.
I'm not gonna say I have nothing to do, because I have TONS of things to do. But, I'm too lazy, and I think I'm not gonna sleep until morning. So, yeah, I decided to do like random facts about moiself, to kill time. Hahaha. Yeah.

1. I always sniff a banana before I eat it. Why? I love the smell :)
2. I'm a 24/7 technology user.
3. I don't like sleeping, at night.
4. I don't have a middle name.
5. I love my last name, A LOT.
6. I love Anberlin.
7. I am always serious when it comes to 'love'.
8. I truly support what I support.
9. I use a lot of bad words.
10. I have a pretty ceiling. That's why I always stare at them.
11. I love to sing even though I know my voice is not good.
12. English is my favorite language.
13. I really wish I have the ability to write a book.
14. I can't sleep when it's too quiet.
15. I hate being lonely.
16. I think too much.
17. I laugh when I'm nervous.
18. I can't concentrate on someones eyes, because I'm afraid they can 'read' my mind.
19. I have big dreams.
20. I live in a topsy turvy world.
21. I am not a good conversation starter.
22. I have nothing against smoker.
23. I blame Disney for my dreams.
24. I really wish I was 19.
25. I like it when someone talk to me.
26. I don't really care about the whole 'scene' thing, that's 'rocking' the inter web.
27. I watch videos on youtube for fun.
28. I read Taking Back Sunday's diary and videos for fun and it does not waste my time. So if you tell me that I'm wasting my time, no.
29. I judge a song not only from the music, but from the lyrics too.
30. I hate it when someone love a band with 'hot members' as the reason.
31. I think this list is already long, but I'll keep going anyway.
32. I actually care about Indonesia. Sorry, if I don't exactly show it.
33. I love waffle.
34. I want to be a great wife and mom, someday.
35. I really think my parent is the best. I just don't want to admit it in front of them.
36. I secretly wish (Ishouldnottypehisname) was dead. So, I could have an obvious reason to move on.
37. I know some people memory is not the best. But I hope they actually pay attention to what I say and actually care.
38. I say 'I miss you' a lot. It's not a formal thing, but I really mean it.
39. I laugh when I see someone (obviously) flirting with their crush.
40. I cry, a lot. But, not in front of someone.
41. I think I'm a weirdo.
42. I wish Santa Clause exist.
43. I want to be Santa's helper.
44. I write a lot, although I know I'm not a good writer.
45. I never do a work-hard-study-hard thing when it comes to exams. I often use my memories from the classes.
46. I don't think my brain could easily forget a Misearbile Visule.
47. I do believe in God.
48. I understand that people is different and I truly respect that.
49. I dislike September.
50. I think Internet is the greatest invention since electricity.
51. I often say 'I give up', but I really don't mean that.
52. I don't like apples.
53. I adore vocalist.
54. I have a list of amazing vocalist. Stephen Christian is the numero uno, and Fred Mascherino is number two.
55. I am 100% serious when it comes to my future.
56. I have an image of my future in my mind. Only someone who can relate to me, could see it.
57. Hero/heroine's intro is what you need to make me leave the room.
58. I could handle picture, but not voice.
59. Stephen Christian is my hero and idol. Because of him, now, I love and believe God more than I ever loved or believe God.
60. Right before I go to sleep, I imagine my wedding day.
61. I want a tattoo.
62. I love coffee. The smell and the taste.
63. I love Hello Kitty, Domo Kun, Ugly Dolls, and Disney stuff, a lot.
64. I have a giant blue friend named MJ and he knows everything about me.
65. I talk to random objects.
66. I love cupcakes and I haven't found the best cupcakes, yet.
67. I will use any excuse to meet my whole whole family.
68. I am not that kind of person who walks into a room and say 'Hello room! Here I am!'
69. I am not original. Neither are you. Nobody is.
70. I spend most of my days in my room, waiting for a miracle to happen.
71. I wish I could be a great artist.
72. I know you might find me annoying.
73. I don't like it when someone ask a very unimportant and irrelevant questions during the lecturing time.
74. Dumb people are not attractive.
75. I love eyes. They could speak more than your mouth and it reflects beauty.
76. I amaze myself sometimes.
77. I don't need coffee to stay awake.
78. Nice arms = attractive.
79. I prefer my room to be cold. Even though I often complaint about it.
80. I am not a big summer fan.
81. I honestly think Britney Spears could be fantastic.
82. I talk about EM and Anberlin a lot.
83. I love talking to random people with random personalities.
84. I have an msn and it's pinkputih_14@msn.com
85. I really hate uneducated pervert that's probably don't have anything better to do than asking for nude pictures and or showing their 'private' parts on the internet without being asked.
86. I am thankful for the life God gave me, although, it's not the best life there is.
87. I rather live in a small house that have a family dinner every night, than a huge mansion that doesn't even have a family time.
88. I am not saying that internet is my life. But, I sure spent a heck lots of time on it.
89. My eyes are sore.
90. I don't know my IQ, but the last time I check, it was around 108.
91. I am not smart, but I'm doing the best I can.
92. I skipped high school.
93. I hate when someone underestimate me.
94. I avoid 'drama' and argues.
95. I don't know the right definition for love. I think it changes from time to time.
96. I think it's time that many people realize that have bangs, wear black clothes, own converse doesn't make you an emo.
97. I dislike Windows Vista. It's over protective.
98. I asked my father to buy me a macbook just so I could have my own photobooth instead of borrowing my sister's mac ;)
99. I hate racist people.
100. I am who I am.

Whoa, 100 facts. That's too many.
Oh well, it killed the time.
Don't judge me by this post. But, wondering is not a crime, you should really get to know me.

oh man!

2008-09-23T02:31:00.000+07:00

Ew, is all I have to say for today.

Management is killing me. I'm scared....... Pffftt. The past is the past right? Mike said it himself. Hahaha.

Wow, I can't believe this semester is almost over, 2 more days. 2 more final days and that's it! Annora is going to Perth :( too bad! I'm going to miss this semester, especially Mr. Banana, I'm not going to take his class next semester. Yippie and Boo.

Now all I have to worry about is MARKETING. It's not any easier than management, that's for sure. Well, just study, pray, study, pray, I'm sure I'll make it through. Hahaha.

Hell To the Yeah

2008-09-22T04:26:00.000+07:00

Since I'm going to move to another house in less than a month, I started thinking about my room. I already decide that on top of my TV there should be a sentence painted on it. So, everytime I wake up or go to sleep, I will see it. My mom and dad agreed.

So, I've picked 10 sentences that I thought would be very very great on my wall (from Anberlin's songs of course). Here's the list:

1. There's more to living than being alive - Alexithymia

2. Patron Saint, are we all lost like you? - *fin

3. There is a light that never goes out - (that's the title)

4. The more I live I see, this life's not about me - Burn Out Brighter (Northern Light)

5. Live, I wanna live inspired - Burn Out Brighter (Northern Light)

6. Stand unafraid, all the good souls - Soft Skeletons

7. How can you expect to win this war, if you're too afraid to fight? - Soft Skeletons

8. Look children to the easterns sky - Misearbile Visu (Ex Molo Bonum)

9. They lied when they said that the good die young - Godspeed

10. Don't drop your arms, I'll guard your heart - The Unwinding Cable Car

Would you be sooooo kind and tell me which one do you think is the best?
Or if you have a sentece that you think will be good on my wall, oh be a dear and tell me ;) I'll be more than happy to consider it!

My mom loves 'There's more to living than being alive' the most.

But, tell me what you think!

Schunday.

2008-09-21T23:59:00.000+07:00

Well, well, well.
My father bought me a new iPod 120G, hahaha hell yeah, and gonna buy me a new macbook. Hahaha, more hell to the yeah.
My mom bought me a really cute banana republic's sandal. Since I love bananas, she said. Haha. Dinner was fun today, we canceled the Ritz Carlton and went to Sushi Tei instead.

one thing that ruined it all.....................
FINAL EXAMS

hah. wish me luck honeys

I'm not surprised, it's september honeys.

2008-09-21T02:58:00.000+07:00

So, tbs is raaaather disappointing. I still love them though! I'm bummed that I didnt get to see Matt Rubano.
But, it is September. And september = bad. (sorryyyyy septemberians (september people)).
And bad news again, travis barker and dj am jet crash. Oh god it gave me a heart attack. They're the ONLY survivors. Please note: THE ONLY. Some says that travis got burnt from waist down, and Dj am is still on surgery. Sigh... May prayers will always be with them

September September.

But then, something that NEVER fails to cheer me up came, see for yourself:

ENJOY!

SEPTEMBER LIGHT

2008-09-20T03:04:00.000+07:00

ANOTHER TAKING BACK SUNDAY LIVE WEBSTREAM
YEAHOOOOOO, THANKS TBS you make my Septemeber feels nicer ;)