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well, after 5 days of staying inside the apartment, i could breathe some fresh air last friday and went to St. Kilda and Richmond. 

today... i went to chadstone and had dinner at sofia. pretty good day, i suppose.

by the way, the word hatred and fake seems to be around my head all day long, no, all week long. 

just thought i'd let them know, our life is a competition, i'm already one step forward, and just to remind you, i will win. i might not have the essentials that you have now, but i'm sure i'm strong enough to keep going on. i will be stronger than you. my life without you wouldn't be a waste. if i could find better version of you, i would kick you away. like you did to me. 

unfortunately, i am not that kind of person, i am not you.

i grew, because of you. and because of your mistakes.

the great thing is that, my grandma got her visa today, and they're going tomorrow! so it's kind of a rush. and what makes it amazing is, 5 hours ago, i texted my mom asking about grandma's visa and she said it's not done yet. and an hour ago, i said out loud "God, give my grandma her visa, i miss her so much!" and my phone beeped, i thought it was sasha, but it was my mother. saying that my grandma's visa is done and they're ready to go.

i cannot be more excited!

aside from that, i already counted everything i need for going to the america to see anberlin and taking back sunday. (if my dad allows it, which i hope he will). and stephanie said the place she works in is now hiring, so i can find my luck there to earn money! yay! 

and hopefully will have enough to get my main priority.

yes, taking back sunday and anberlin.

wish 

me 

luck 

lovelies. 

It's been awhile since I wrote a decent update here. That's only because I don't really know what to write. Okay, let me try this.

School- it's not really that bad. I'm keeping up with everything fine, but the essays. God. I'm so not in the mood for writing 2000 words essay. Although, I already have everything I need. But the light hasn't shine yet. 

Friends- got them. but this is australia babe. Not everyone lives in your town. I sometimes don't mind spending some time alone, I'm coping with loneliness just fine. And plus, like Sasha and I agreed, we need to stand on our own two feet. Never depend on anybody. Right Sha?

Health- Tired and having a little bit of a headache because of the rain. I didn't have any umbrella, so, yesterday, I walked to the bus stop and stood there for about 20 minutes in the rain, and after I got off, the rain was still going, so I walked to Deakin. As soon as I got to Chadstone, I bought an umbrella. And hopefully, will remember to bring it every time I leave the house. I often thought about how I never had to deal with this kind of situation in Jakarta.

Well, it's not like I'm going to have a driver and a car forever. Especially in this life that I've chosen. 

Come to think of it, when we grow up, we're not going to have someone taking care of our every need, are we? We (at some point) have to take care of ourselves alone. House rent, food, transportation, laundry, and all of that. No more mom and dad to take care of those for us. So better start from now. I might turned out to be a spoiled brat living like she owns everything just 'coz my parents gave me everything I need if I stayed back home. Have to pay and do everything by myself here, really brought me back to my senses. I am no longer feel the need to envy the world of the riches.

Love- screw this one, shall we?

Food- I only need 4 foods and 4 food only. Tacos, Sushi, Burrito, and Cookies. I rest my case.

Money- I've applied to two places, unfortunately, they haven't respond, so for now, I don't have any job. But I better get one soon, I want to spend money without the guilt. Because right now... I'm using my parents money. And it's bad enough that they have to pay for my house rent and my college tuition. I'm just feeling a bit guilty when I use it for something else (clothes, etc). It will be better if I earn and use my own money. Don't you think?

And that's about it. 

I actually cannot wait until mom and grandma visit me! I've missed them so much, and I do need to know the gossips from my mom.