almost birthday
Thursday, May 07, 2009 | 1 Comments
Tumblr.
Wednesday, April 22, 2009 | 0 Comments
we're just april fools
Sunday, April 05, 2009 | 0 Comments
well, after 5 days of staying inside the apartment, i could breathe some fresh air last friday and went to St. Kilda and Richmond.
today... i went to chadstone and had dinner at sofia. pretty good day, i suppose.
by the way, the word hatred and fake seems to be around my head all day long, no, all week long.
just thought i'd let them know, our life is a competition, i'm already one step forward, and just to remind you, i will win. i might not have the essentials that you have now, but i'm sure i'm strong enough to keep going on. i will be stronger than you. my life without you wouldn't be a waste. if i could find better version of you, i would kick you away. like you did to me.
unfortunately, i am not that kind of person, i am not you.
i grew, because of you. and because of your mistakes.
"4 am there's someone on your shoulder
they call, when its suddenly cold
you're like an autumn's leaf in winter's wind
blown away by the sudden lack of friends when you need someone close
don't give me lies of gold intentions..."
whatever will be, will be.
Wednesday, March 18, 2009 | 0 Comments
the great thing is that, my grandma got her visa today, and they're going tomorrow! so it's kind of a rush. and what makes it amazing is, 5 hours ago, i texted my mom asking about grandma's visa and she said it's not done yet. and an hour ago, i said out loud "God, give my grandma her visa, i miss her so much!" and my phone beeped, i thought it was sasha, but it was my mother. saying that my grandma's visa is done and they're ready to go.
i cannot be more excited!
aside from that, i already counted everything i need for going to the america to see anberlin and taking back sunday. (if my dad allows it, which i hope he will). and stephanie said the place she works in is now hiring, so i can find my luck there to earn money! yay!
and hopefully will have enough to get my main priority.
yes, taking back sunday and anberlin.
wish
me
luck
lovelies.
feels like bloggin'
Sunday, March 15, 2009 | 0 Comments
It's been awhile since I wrote a decent update here. That's only because I don't really know what to write. Okay, let me try this.
School- it's not really that bad. I'm keeping up with everything fine, but the essays. God. I'm so not in the mood for writing 2000 words essay. Although, I already have everything I need. But the light hasn't shine yet.
Friends- got them. but this is australia babe. Not everyone lives in your town. I sometimes don't mind spending some time alone, I'm coping with loneliness just fine. And plus, like Sasha and I agreed, we need to stand on our own two feet. Never depend on anybody. Right Sha?
Health- Tired and having a little bit of a headache because of the rain. I didn't have any umbrella, so, yesterday, I walked to the bus stop and stood there for about 20 minutes in the rain, and after I got off, the rain was still going, so I walked to Deakin. As soon as I got to Chadstone, I bought an umbrella. And hopefully, will remember to bring it every time I leave the house. I often thought about how I never had to deal with this kind of situation in Jakarta.
Well, it's not like I'm going to have a driver and a car forever. Especially in this life that I've chosen.
Come to think of it, when we grow up, we're not going to have someone taking care of our every need, are we? We (at some point) have to take care of ourselves alone. House rent, food, transportation, laundry, and all of that. No more mom and dad to take care of those for us. So better start from now. I might turned out to be a spoiled brat living like she owns everything just 'coz my parents gave me everything I need if I stayed back home. Have to pay and do everything by myself here, really brought me back to my senses. I am no longer feel the need to envy the world of the riches.
Love- screw this one, shall we?
Food- I only need 4 foods and 4 food only. Tacos, Sushi, Burrito, and Cookies. I rest my case.
Money- I've applied to two places, unfortunately, they haven't respond, so for now, I don't have any job. But I better get one soon, I want to spend money without the guilt. Because right now... I'm using my parents money. And it's bad enough that they have to pay for my house rent and my college tuition. I'm just feeling a bit guilty when I use it for something else (clothes, etc). It will be better if I earn and use my own money. Don't you think?
And that's about it.
I actually cannot wait until mom and grandma visit me! I've missed them so much, and I do need to know the gossips from my mom.
a wish,
Wednesday, March 11, 2009 | 0 Comments
But now, I know exactly what I want.
I want to go to :
Yes, there it is. My two most favorite band (Taking Back Sunday and Anberlin), in one concert.
A few months, no, like 5 or 6 months ago, I was told to make a magazine for our mass communication class and I had to do 2 ads. I made one ad for a concert, which is Taking Back Sunday and Anberlin's. Oh, it's coming true. It's coming true now. I guess, I can see the future. No, I can't. But anyway, coincidence! Or a lucky guess, either of that.
So there you have it, that's what I want for my birthday. May 19th people! May 19th!
Fingers crossed for a miracle!
and p.s : evvvverybody knows I love Anberlin. Especially if they know me in person. True?
Dear Time Traveler,
Thursday, March 05, 2009 | 0 Comments
A thing I've said.
Wednesday, March 04, 2009 | 0 Comments
I bet you all know who I was talking about.
My teenage moment.
Sunday, March 01, 2009 | 0 Comments
But over all Friday was the most amazing day I've ever had! To this date. period.
To this exact second, my whole body is still aching and plus, my feet still hurts so bad. This is the most terrible pain I've ever felt since.... I can't remember when. But tell you what, it was worth it.
I could relive today over and over and over again.
It's gonna take long.
Friday, February 27, 2009 | 0 Comments
Well, I enjoyed Soundwave Festival, got a few things to remember them by, including scars and bruises and cramps, terrible, terrible pain. But that's okay. I freaking love today. Definitely an unforgettable, irreplaceable, one of the best days, I've ever had.
I hope you enjoy your Friday.
You know what,
Sunday, February 15, 2009 | 0 Comments
But somehow, I knew I'll be back.
And now I have a feeling, it will be harder to leave this town.
Because I knew from the minute I came, I'm going to leave.
Lookie here.
Friday, February 13, 2009 | 0 Comments
I really can't wait until soundwave, it's going to be super awesome. I'm going to have so much fun!
Wish-list:
1. Polaroid Camera. I guess I'll have to save up and buy them on ebay.
2. fredflare.com to ship internationally.
3. The Orphaned Anything's. Aaaaaaaahhh!!!
that's about it.
Hibernation.
Friday, January 30, 2009 | 0 Comments
Finishing my exams doesn't mean I'm less busy. I might even be busier! I've got a lot of things to get done before my departure on February 13th, including taking out my wisdom teeth. Good thing all the immigration stuff is finished.
One thing that made me slightly upset is my family. I'm so sad to leave them, especially my grandparents. My mom told me that both of my grandparents are more nervous than I am about this "trip" (I'll call it trip because I will eventually be back.) They're afraid that they won't see me again. No, not me, they're afraid that they'll die before seeing me again. And you know what, I was thinking the exact same thing. I'm afraid that if something happens, I won't be there. And it will definitely hurts to know that I can't be there in such a situation. I seriously love them to death.
Stay tune.
Lack of updates
Tuesday, January 27, 2009 | 0 Comments
I'm so busy with final exams.
I hope I could write soon ;)
quick words:
Saturday, January 24, 2009 | 0 Comments
WAKE UP PEOPLE! just destroying things. why don't you do something productive instead? or at least give the solution to the problem.
you're destroying your country for god's sake. its your country thats dealing with all the loses.
shut up with your reason such as defending your religion, its effing not. you're making a wrong, effing wrong, impression of our religion.
seriously people think about it.
The most interesting thing that happened to me on Monday.
Wednesday, January 21, 2009 | 0 Comments
Last Monday was my last class of Computing. Unlike any other subject, I don't think this needs a revision. So, Winda and I decided not to do the past paper exam and just open the book at some page and pretended to read it. We came across a map of United States. And then... there's one state, MS. I asked Winda "What's MS?" "thenameofacertainsomeone" "Hahahaha, no seriously." she couldn't answer so we tried to remember but nothing came up. And then we had this idea...
We list all of the states and see which one is missing. So we did. I think the lecture is quite impressed to see us do some work. Although he didn't know that the work we've done has NOTHING to do with his subject.
So came this list:
At the moment, we've listed all states except MS. (We continued this list at break time). We refused to eat until we figured out what MS is. And we won't try and search it in google because that's "giving up". We think hard, and Winda yelled "MISSISIPI!!!"
After the mystery is solved, we ate peacefully. And even forgot to study for the test after the break ;)
And the title is right, this is the most interesting thing that happened to me on Monday. And yes, my life is that boring.
My day yesterday, was consisted by:
Sunday, January 18, 2009 | 0 Comments
1. Glitter tattoos
2. Potatoes (Soup, mashed, fried, baked)
3. Vanilla latte
4. Movies
5. Clowns
6. Balloons
7. Laughter
8. Babies
9. Seaweed
last, but not least, my family.
a life for me now is very enjoyable.
My feelings exactly:
Thursday, January 15, 2009 | 0 Comments
Now she's forgiven the harms of her pastShe'll take a message somewhere it will last
She fails where she fails but she's trying
And growing up fast
Echoes climbing back
What's this
Hit or miss attack
You missed it
She's got white lights on her face
From the bad days
That she just can't erase
And her sad eyes are replaced
With the new life in a beautiful place
And this is the pattern
And this is the stone
This is the past she knows she can run from
This is the place she's been in since she was born
Deas Vail-White Lights
Go watch : The Fly Boys (Sky Kids)
Wednesday, January 14, 2009 | 0 Comments
Awards:
Ojai Film Festival :
Audience choice- Best Feature Film
Bendfilm Festival :
Audience choice- Best Feature Film
Arpa International Film Festival :
Jury prize- Best Screen Play
Ashville Festival :
Audience choice- Best Feature Film
Barbados International Film Festival :
Audience choice- Best Feature Film
Jury prize- Best Feature Director
-Best Feature Actor
-Best Feature Actress
Jackson Hole Film Festival :
Jury Prize- Best Feature Film
Garden State Film Festival :
Jury prize- Best Feature Film
Jury Prize- Best cinematography
Big Island Film Festival :
Audience choice- Best Feature Film
Jury choice- Best Family Feature
California Independent Film Festival :
Jury prize- Best Director
Jury Prize- Best Cinematography
Jury prize- Best Score
Sedona International Film Festival :
Audience choice - Best feature film
Lake Havasu International Film Festival :
Jury price- Best Feature Film
Jury Prize- Best Film Of 2008
9th Annual Westchester County International Film Festival :
Jury prize- Best Feature Film
Tiburon International Film Festival :
"Golden Reel Award"- Best Children Film
George Lindsay Una Film Festival :
Jury prize- Best Feature Film
Beaufort Film Festival:
Jury prize- Best Feature Film
Durango Independent Film Festival :
Jury prize- Best Feature Film
Gasparilla Film Festival :
Audience prize - Best Feature Film
Omaha Film Festival :
Jury prize- Best Feature Film
Audience prize- Best Feature Film
the award list got so long, I'm too lazy to type it down. Check it out here.
12 days to final
Tuesday, January 13, 2009 | 0 Comments
So, I'm still tired, maybe mom's advice was right, i need some kind of vitamin pills. pssh, i dont need that! i think i'm tired because i'm nervous. You know, moving and stuff.
Resting!
p.s my mom loves stephen christian's blog. 'what an artist.' she said. :)
Eeek!
Saturday, January 10, 2009 | 0 Comments
I watched Yes Man last night, I thought it was a very good movie. I do have something more to say about that film, but, meh, my fingers are still sore from all the lifting today, so maybe some other time.
I have to end this post right here because I have to help my mom and grandma to clean my grandma's house for tomorrow's family gathering. As the host, we have to make the place comfortable for the guests ;)
I'll write to you later when all this tiredness has passed :) I'm still gonna do quickie updates from twitter though, it's faster and not so much chit chat.
Wide awake
Wednesday, January 07, 2009 | 0 Comments
Hows your sixth day in 2009? Mine was great!
I made a new record. As you probably know already, I have a wee bit trouble with sleeping. A few months ago I didn't sleep for 25 hours, and I thought that's the longest I could go on without sleeping, but I was wrong!
I didn't sleep for 30 hours yesterday, and it's all because of Economics! Well, not really that's just a reason I used so it seems like I actually have something to do. In the morning I went to Dunkin Donuts and bought myself (and Sasha too) a cup of hazelnut latte. So, my drive to campus was accompanied by a cup of hazelnut latte and Taking Back Sunday's Louder Now with maximum volume. Class went by slower than usual, it seemed to me that the lecture was explaining the whole book instead of one chapter. My friends are glad because after class they could sleep, well not for me. Gym was patiently waiting for me to come back after a week of holiday. So, yeah, I went to the gym. To my surprise, I wasn't even tired at all! And I wasn't hungry either! Of course it surprised me because I haven't had any breakfast or lunch. The only thing that filled my tummy is that delicious hazelnut latte. (Yes, I am "healthy").
I got home at 3, and went to sleep immediately until 10.30 p.m and now I'm wide awake. Hahaha. I don't think I will be sleeping again, I have to be up and running at 5.30 and that means 2 more hours.
Hmm
Monday, January 05, 2009 | 0 Comments
Their faces go red, their chest heave mightily, they sputter angry words. The degree if their indignation is astonishing. Their resolve is frightening.
These people fail to realize that it is on the inside that God must be defended, not on the outside. They should direct their anger at themselves. For evil in the open is but evil from within that has been let out. The main battlefield for good is not the open ground of the public arena but the small clearing of each heart.
Meanwhile the lot of widows and homeless children is very hard and it is to their defense, not God's, that the self-righteous should rush."
-Life Of Pi by Yann Martel
Survey Tagged
Sunday, January 04, 2009 | 0 Comments
Try not to skip any question!
And here you go...
What is the most exciting moment in your life?
I honestly can't pick one
How do you show love to people who are special to you?
I don't know... Honestly
When do you get really angry?
When someone does something intolerable
What do you do if others disagree with you?
Depends on what we disagree on. But, mostly try to discuss it.
What do you do for fun?
Read, Write, Watch.
A person from the opposite sex gives special attention to you but you don’t expect it, how would you respond him/her?
I seriously wouldn't notice the special attention
Would your rather be very rich or be very smart? Why?
Very smart. I could try to make money with my smartness.
Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
In a college, taking my master degree, and hopefully have someone special to come home to.
If you could be successful at any job in the world, what would that job be?
Wife, mom, friend, and God's servant
What attracts you most?
Eyes
Would you rather have a spouse who is intelligent but unattractive or unintelligent but attractive?
In between, how about that?
If you’re able to speak in 5 languages, what will they be?
Spanish, Mandarin, Javanese, French, Swedish
What is your favorite quote?
I can't pick one
What would you define yourself in 3 adjective words?
Loud, Moody, Difficult
What’s your favorite Christmas song?
Santa Claus is Coming To Town
What’s the best food you’ve ever eaten and where did you eat it?
I like food, so I couldn't pick the best
Would you rather spend a day without eating or without sleeping?
Without eating.
What kind of person irritates you most?
People who thinks they're the center of the world, thinks they're all that just because people tell them they are.
What would you like to do in the future?
Be happy and successful
When’s the last time your parents got angry with you?
Like really angry? A long time ago.
Who influenced your life the most?
For these last months, Stephen Christian and Anberlin
How tall are you?
5'5
Do you like bananas?
Most definitely
What is your favorite movie quote?
The newest : "Your fun is only limited by your imagination."
What would be the soundtrack to the movie about your life?
I think it would be "Take A Step Back" Every Avenue, or "All At Once" Valencia, or "Breathe" Anberlin.
If you had to make a movie about your life what would it be called?
I don't know about the title, but I know the sub-title, "When imagination got a little bit out of control"
Biggest regret?
Take people for granted
What musical instrument do you play?
A wee bit Guitar
Family or friends?
Family, they're my true friends
Do you drink coffee?
I'm addicted to coffee
What are your "comfy clothes"?
Those shirts in my closet
How many people are in your family?
Family for me includes everyone, grandparents, cousins, etc. So, a lot.
Tom Cruise or Brad Pitt?
Johnny Depp
Desktop or Laptop?
Laptop for fun
Desktop for work
Are you in love?
This love is getting weakened
Favorite hot drink?
Cappucino/Latte/Frappucino
Performing Arts, Fine Arts, or Sports?
Fine arts PWNS!!!!!!
What came first, the chicken or the egg?
I could never understand this question, hahaha
How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
1905?
Why are you taking this interview?
Because Winda tagged me
How many hobbies do you have?
Eek, should I count?
Close your eyes for a moment, who pops into your head?
Someone I'm trying to forget
Describe your perfect Sunday morning?
I always sleep in on Sunday morning, and it's perfect
If you could be someone else for a day, who would it be?
No one
When do you want to get married?
When I'm emotionally ready
What makes you cry?
Feelings
What makes you laugh?
People, jokes, and sometimes, the laughter itself
Do you believe that the cup is half empty or half full?
Huh? I'm not going to pretend I'm smart and understand this question...
Who was your hero as a child?
Okay, judge me... Sailor Moon
Are you an outdoor or an indoor person?
Indoor
What 3 words would your best friend use to describe you?
Why don't you ask them?
Who do you admire most?
Excluding my family because I'll always admire them in some ways. Anberlin. They're just so, wow.
How do you feel?
Unwell, but happy
What size shoes do you wear?
7
Favorite Place to Eat?
Sushi Tei & Bread 'n Breakfast
Opera, Musical, Concert, Play, Performance, or Other?
Concert
Your favorite Disney Films?
I like all original Disney Films. But above all, Lion King.
Why did the chicken cross the road?
Because (insert answer here)
Do you support Paris?
Paris? Like Paris Hilton?
Where is Waldo?
Shh, I can't tell! He's hiding.
Favorite element?
Air
What was your last thought?
Water, Earth, Air, Fire
Are you in love?
This love is getting weakened
Favorite hot drink?
Cappucino/Latte/Frappucino
Performing Arts, Fine Arts, or Sports?
Fine arts PWNS!!!!!!
What came first, the chicken or the egg?
I could never understand this question, hahaha
How much wood could a wood chuck chuck if a wood chuck could chuck wood?
1905?
Why are you taking this interview?
Because Winda tagged me
How many hobbies do you have?
Eek, should I count?
Close your eyes for a moment, who pops into your head?
Someone I'm trying to forget
Describe your perfect Sunday morning?
I always sleep in on Sunday morning, and it's perfect
If you could be someone else for a day, who would it be?
No one
When do you want to get married?
When I'm emotionally ready
What makes you cry?
Feelings
What makes you laugh?
People, jokes, and sometimes, the laughter itself
Do you believe that the cup is half empty or half full?
Huh? I'm not going to pretend I'm smart and understand this question...
Who was your hero as a child?
Okay, judge me... Sailor Moon
Are you an outdoor or an indoor person?
Indoor
What 3 words would your best friend use to describe you?
Why don't you ask them?
Who do you admire most?
Excluding my family because I'll always admire them in some ways. Anberlin. They're just so, wow.
How do you feel?
Unwell, but happy
What size shoes do you wear?
7
Favorite Place to Eat?
Sushi Tei & Bread 'n Breakfast
Opera, Musical, Concert, Play, Performance, or Other?
Concert
Your favorite Disney Films?
I like all original Disney Films. But above all, Lion King.
Why did the chicken cross the road?
Because (insert answer here)
Do you support Paris?
Paris? Like Paris Hilton?
Where is Waldo?
Shh, I can't tell! He's hiding.
Favorite element?
Air
What was your last thought?
Water, Earth, Air, Fire
Favorite fruit?
Banana own my heart
Which is worse? A bad laugh or a bad cough?
Bad cough, a bad laugh made me laugh!
Would you rather be blind or deaf?
Neither...
Kill the spider or let it out?
Let it out
Do you shower every single day?
I will be honest and say... No :)
What would you do if Michael Jackson asked you out?
Freaked out and maybe be dead for like 60 seconds
Do you read Harry Potter books?
Yes
What is your favorite place?
Home
If you could have one super human power what would you choose?
Fly. I wouldn't choose reading minds because I've learnt that some things are better off unknown
Have you had a beer in the last week?
Nope
Favorite body part?
Eyes and hands for sure
What do you do on fridays?
Not school ;)
What is your favorite song of all time?
Of all time? A Whole New World. Well, what can I say? I love that song since I was a kid
Are you fed up of all these questions?
Kind of, this is loooong.
Thank you for taking this survey.
Send this survey to your friends.
Happy New Year!
Living in 2009
Saturday, January 03, 2009 | 5 Comments
How's your third day in 2009? Mine's really well :)
I got to see Bedtime Stories yesterday. Despite the fact that the theater was really, really cold, and I got the front row seat (which was totally fine if it was a concert), I loved it! That's what I call creativity. Talking of creativity, Winda and I went to a cd store today. Winda saw a cd by our local band and she said "This is what I call 'a lack of creativity." The background color is red. The band's name is written in blue using, I suppose, Lucida Grande (Open your ms. word) and the title used italic Century Gothic. The picture? There's no picture, except a silhouette. Yes, yes, very imaginative.
The main reason Winda and I met at Pondok Indah Mall was to work on our economics assignment. And here's the result of our 'work':
Yes, we made 0 progress.
Now, for the past week, I've been listening to Anberlin, Blueprints For The Black Market. I now really believe that there's not even 1 song, ONE song, I didn't like. Zero, Nol, Nihil.
I'm so excited to tell you that I'll be attending Australian Soundwave '09! Anberlin, Valencia, Forever The Sickest Kids, Bayside, and Say Anything? Big yes! All I have to do is wait for Taking Back Sunday and Every Avenue. Which I hope will be very soon ;)
Oh, and Winz, you ARE right, God really did show me that he's not worth crushing. He is so not worth the time! He's a mess! Besides his good looks and you know what. But I'll keep writing for literature's sake.
I'm now in a position where I'm content with my own life.
The world is not against me. It's helping me.
Hello!
Thursday, January 01, 2009 | 0 Comments
If you read this (and live around Asia/Australia, its 12:46 am), that means that you have made it to another year. 2009.
Many, many, many things had happened in the last 365 pages of our book of life. The happy, the sad, the expected, and the unexpected. I trust it was for the best, maybe the bad times taught you something, maybe the good times made you appreciate life, maybe the expected made you thankful, and maybe the unexpected made you a lot closer to God. But, overall, it brought you to 2009.
For me, the half year of 2008 is the highlight of the year. Graduating, and everything. I couldnt be anymore happier to graduate junior high, and went straight to college foundation. It was one of the proudest moments of my life.
the rest of 2008 made me realize how important my family is. For some reason, when I started college, I became a lot closer with my mom and dad. Especially my mom. We did almost everything together, and I didnt mind at all. I went with my family on the weekend instead of my friends and I realized that they're the true ones I can count on. The problems my family faced this year seemed to brought us even closer than we've ever been. The trip to Yogyakarta (my grandfather's hometown) couldnt be any better. We're so proud of my family. and I can tell that they're too proud.
It's very clear now that I really, really, really am going to miss them when I moved to Australia. The jokes, the chaos, and everything.
Well, I'm just going to keep on praying that I will be ready to face whatever God has placed in the future.
God bless us, and HAPPY NEW YEAR.
from my family...
to yours...
edit: I found an old chat from an old friend, and he has a part of my year with him
* says : the age difference never mattered once i grew to love you
* says : i knew i could talk to you about anything
* says : sometimes you realise that love is not to be taken for granted
* says : mmwwaah
If you read this, thank you very much, you have no idea how happy it was for me to know someone like you. If only you know I'm going to be so much closer to you now...
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