my new friend. i dont care how shitty i look here! that boy is sooooooooooo cute.
and I dont even know his name..... ahhahaha love.
doll
Sunday, October 26, 2008 | 0 Comments
my new friend. i dont care how shitty i look here! that boy is sooooooooooo cute.
Burnt
Sunday, October 26, 2008 | 0 Comments
I'm back to the old routines.
Tomorrow's Economics.
Lazy as f.
fresh air
Friday, October 24, 2008 | 0 Comments
"Do not be surprised if your road to romance takes a little bit of a detour today -- but you cannot let yourself become disheartened about it. Just roll with it. The changes you will be going through over the next several days will be for the best, no matter how icky they feel at the time. Stay hopeful and stay cheerful. The image you project to the outside world will eventually come back to you and give you a genuine feeling of joyous and positive emotions."
10/24/2008
10/24/2008
I'm off to Bali tomorrow morning. First flight. I'm looking forward to this trip, although it's only for 3 days but at least I get to get away from Jakarta's chaos. Almira and I promised that we will not talk about M or D for as long as this trip lasts. I hope it helps a little. As you all know, I need rehab. But not like drugs or alcohol rehab.
Blah. I dont feel like writing. I want to read.
Oh, oh, I've been reading this book called 'Wasted'. I'm a little bit scared when I read it, because I can't imagine someone actually went through those stuff.
The next book : The Glass Castle (if i'm not mistaken)
Crappy semester
Wednesday, October 22, 2008 | 0 Comments
First thing that disappointed me : The fact that MWB seperated Nanad, Nita and I with Sasha and Winda and Santi. And the fact that we couldnt trade days.
Second : the fact that John wont be teaching Communication Skills.
Third : I have two classes in one day.
Fourth : No more Rachel, Annora, and Arlene :( :(
Fifth : I'm damned.
astrological
Monday, October 20, 2008 | 0 Comments
"No one can intimidate or manipulate you, today -- you will be content to stay on your own path and stick to your own plan. The folks who seem to be trying so hard to get you to change your mind and do things their way don't seem to be very happy. So why do they think they know what they are talking about? You are the person who is best suited to being in charge of your life, and you should feel free to tell anyone that. It's a great way to get the naggers off your back!"
Wahahaha, what a great way to start my day.
By the way, Happy 16th Birthday to Cheras Sjarfi my lovely aunt ;) and happy birthday to Kerri too :) (yesterday)
I wish tomorrow's my birthday.
Oh and for today (it's 1 am) Happy birthday to Amelie and Rosalie!
3:08 AM
Sunday, October 19, 2008 | 0 Comments
Hello people of earth and maybe other galaxy!
Oh well, I've been thinking... we know exactly that we exist right here on this planet earth, right? But teachers said that in this whole wide world there's other galaxy other than this. Maybe under the name of 'ajfnbqofnbaoncklalca' or 'jfibsdbfksnaklfcdna' that's located 186230548513 miles away from the milky way. What if there's another species like human on the other planet of the other galaxy? Do they know our existence here on earth? Or is it still a mystery to them as is it for us? Do they look like us? Do they talk and walk and move like us? Do they have internet? Can they type? Do they read books? I have thousands of question I've been dying to find out!
Oh well, I want to tell you about my day.
I woke up around 3 pm or was it 3.30? anyway, I woke up and found out that nobody was home. Yes, I was pissed. I cant remember if I then watched Bring It On or Hating Alison Ashley today, because I did the exact same thing yesterday and I get the movie mixed up in my head, haha, anyway, after long hours of doing nothing and eating nothing because unfortunately no food interests me, I went back to my room with the light still turned off, raised the volume of my iTunes and laid back. Suddenly, my mom came home, burst in to my room and turned off the speaker and said 'you dont live in your own world. stop listening to the music that loud.' I dont know why but it pisses me off. Like winda said 'what A MOM.'
I changed my hair color today, nothing too fancy, just a lighter brown that's all, you can't really see it. October wasn't that great, but at least it's better than September.
Hahahahaha, the song 'Down Under' just played! I love that song! I went to Sydney last summer and went to UEC for two weeks, and on the end of the lectures, the teacher taught us that song! I ended up remembering all the words and download it, hahahaha. What a memory!
Wah, I ran out of words. So see you!!
Oh well, I've been thinking... we know exactly that we exist right here on this planet earth, right? But teachers said that in this whole wide world there's other galaxy other than this. Maybe under the name of 'ajfnbqofnbaoncklalca' or 'jfibsdbfksnaklfcdna' that's located 186230548513 miles away from the milky way. What if there's another species like human on the other planet of the other galaxy? Do they know our existence here on earth? Or is it still a mystery to them as is it for us? Do they look like us? Do they talk and walk and move like us? Do they have internet? Can they type? Do they read books? I have thousands of question I've been dying to find out!
Oh well, I want to tell you about my day.
I woke up around 3 pm or was it 3.30? anyway, I woke up and found out that nobody was home. Yes, I was pissed. I cant remember if I then watched Bring It On or Hating Alison Ashley today, because I did the exact same thing yesterday and I get the movie mixed up in my head, haha, anyway, after long hours of doing nothing and eating nothing because unfortunately no food interests me, I went back to my room with the light still turned off, raised the volume of my iTunes and laid back. Suddenly, my mom came home, burst in to my room and turned off the speaker and said 'you dont live in your own world. stop listening to the music that loud.' I dont know why but it pisses me off. Like winda said 'what A MOM.'
I changed my hair color today, nothing too fancy, just a lighter brown that's all, you can't really see it. October wasn't that great, but at least it's better than September.
Hahahahaha, the song 'Down Under' just played! I love that song! I went to Sydney last summer and went to UEC for two weeks, and on the end of the lectures, the teacher taught us that song! I ended up remembering all the words and download it, hahahaha. What a memory!
Wah, I ran out of words. So see you!!
chery on top
Wednesday, October 15, 2008 | 0 Comments
anberlin + tbs = LOVE.
swimming
Tuesday, October 14, 2008 | 0 Comments
Unfortunately, my brain didnt want to go to sleep just yet. I'm wide awake even though my lights are off.
A few minutes ago, I was wondering. Did he, the one who should remain nameless, ever read this blog? If yes, did he realize it was about him? If yes, was he disappointed? angry? sad? happy? excited? I will never know. Will I? And after I know it, and lets say he was angry, should I delete the whole thing, although it's my feelings? Or if he was happy, should I keep making those posts, so he could be happy all the time, because I love him and want him to be happy? What if he doesnt care? What if he does care? Too many questions are swimming inside my head.
To be honest, I'm scared. I'm scared that God will give me an opportunity to meet him as fans and celebrity. I will not be ready. I'm going to look pretty darn stupid. I'm scared and I'm not ready.
If you're reading this blog and realize it's for you, well- how are you? Is everything okay? Are you happy? Am I bothering you?- See too many questions, again.
I know, this is a boring subject for some people, maybe they'll say 'Get over it already.' or 'please, you're overreacting.' or 'just forget him already' or maybe even, 'stupid girl.' well, I dont expect to you to read, or understand this, or help me (although I'll really appriciate your help). But, this is what's going on inside my mind.
"Love is the closest thing to magic." Is it true? Sometimes I believe it is.
Love is such a confusing thing to think about. It's crazy to think why I even love him. I cant even put it down to words. He might not believe it. People might not believe it. But, really, I'm not the one who feel and deal with all of this, you cant just say 'you're exaggerating' or 'it's not love. You' dont really love him' when I know exactly what I'm feeling. I never lie to myself.
Another question comes in my mind:
Do you believe in dreams comes true?
I do. But it doesnt come from a fairy god mother who saves you when your step sisters ruin your dress and ruin your chance to meet your 'prince charming.' or a wishing well full with pennys. But from God. Anything God wants to happen, happen. It's easy as one, two, three, for God to make things happen. Even if he wants to end the world right now, he can. So, why give up? Even if there's no wishing well, or there's no falling stars, or fairy godmother, the magic of God still exists, right? That's why I dare to dream big and keep believing in it. And I think you should too.
I really can't believe I just write all of this at 1:59 am.
a lilttle some some
Monday, October 13, 2008 | 0 Comments
Hi guys, in case you're wondering, I'm not dead yet.
I just want to enjoy my days off, which I obviously cant. Tons of things to do, such as, taking my dog to the vet, checking the new house, packing stuff, do some bank stuff, and gym/yoga (i cant believe my mother sign me up). I haven't unpack my things from Japan. They're still piling.
I will, I repeat WILL write about my trip to Japan. I don't know when, but I will. Trust me. I have a lot of things in my mind right now, and I think it's ready to explode.
Something weird happened to me. My heartbeat wont slow down, it's like a sign or something. At first I thought it was about my final result which turns out fine. But, my heart is beating faster. Oh I hope this is not a sign of something bad is going to happen. And all day today, when I saw food, I immediately want to throw up. I dont know whats wrong with me. I cant even think about food, gave me headache.
I'm still having a jet lag.
I'm sleepy, it's only 11:19 pm.
it's 1:19 am in Japan.
So. see ya.
apology
Friday, October 10, 2008 | 0 Comments
i'm currently enjoying my day off before i have to start semester two! ecomics here i come! baahh. hahaha
so, i'm not going to write a lot, but stay tune for my trip to Japan! it was amazing, tons of photos! or maybe i'll just gonna make those photo blog? hmm not sure
sit tight!
2 kill time
Thursday, October 02, 2008 | 0 Comments
I bought a book today, a few hours ago, the title is 'Can Robot be Human?' if i'm not mistaken. It's a good book. and I just finished reading 'the perks of being a wallflower'. i liked it too. so, i kinda brought 4 books with me right now, yeah, i'm a bookworm, that's a good thing though, right? hahaha.
I'm so looking forward to this trip. I seriously couldnt wait to get out of jakarta, not that i hate it but really, i'm bored and want to go someplace new and here i am going to japan. yaaay.
first day is going to be universal studio, yup, straight from the airport, so i better get lots and lots of sleep. 5 hours from here to japan, hmmm, i think i can make it work.
the last two days will be disney land and disney world...... i dont know about you, but i love that place. seriously, its like i'm in a totally different world! i've been to disney land anaheim and disney land hong kong and this will be my first time in disney land tokyo, im so excited!!!
i'll post pictures as soon as i get home and put it on the computer and not too lazy to upload it ;)
so excited.
well............ it's already 12:12 maybe i better go to the waiting room now..... or maybe i'll write for another minute?
Aaahhh i miss my friends both jhs and college's friends.... i want to meet everybody! especially nadya, winda, and sasha, weeeeee, we've known each other for like 6 months? and im already used to you guys hahahaha. miss you!
and i also miss my thalita, dea,mahy,arti, and anin
we used to hang out together on holidays like this. mmhhmm, make sure we meet when i get back!
okay, the annoucement lady just say something about my flight so maybe i should go now. haaahha. bye ;)
new surrender is finally out!
Thursday, October 02, 2008 | 0 Comments
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