I havent update this thing since 3 months ago. pheew, I guess I'm just too busy doing stuffs.
So,
I'M NO LONGER A JHS MWHAHAHAHHAHA. That's the most important thing. I'm so happy but still kinda sad, yes, friends and everything. Now, I'm moving on to foundation class and have new friends. When I'm moving to diploma, I'm so not going to choose management. It's driving me CRAZY. Enough talking about school or academic, I'm having a headache.
Okay, I know I'm late but I'm obsessed with Twilight series. God, I spent a whole day reading that book, I just cant put it down. And now, I'm also obsessed with vampires, wooo. Nah, I like them from a long time ago.
Getting serious now......... About something that's familiar to all of us, love.
I'm sick, very sick of what I'm feeling now. Really. Most people said that I'm just over reacting. I'M NOT. They think I'm exaggerating. I'M NOT. They dont know how it feels to be me, to be in love with someone that you cant have, obviously. Dont they think I want to stop it too? It's not the best feeling you know. When you woke up in the morning, wishing for something that needed miracle to happen. To go to school with hope that he would notice you somehow on this virtual world called 'internet' and when you go home and check on it, you find nothing. To see his face only through photograph. It's frustrating you know. Depressing. But I just cant stop! Fuck it. I'm addicted to him. There's no way I could completely forget him. No way, NO WAY.
I shouldnt watch romance and fantasy too many times, it wasted my time. I obviously live in my dreams.
If I live in the reality, would it be much much happier or it would make me more miserable? I havent got the chance to find out, hopefully, when I move out of this town... the feeling wouldnt follow me and I know I would do whatever it takes to leave this feeling behind.
xxxxxooooo,
N!
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